i hate you. (hyunlix)

4. Regret?...

HYUNJIN

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I fell in my bed after a long day. A specific person came to mind.

Yes. Short, blonde mullet male, with freckles, Aussie boy. Felix. I missed the times when it was us. Holding hands, hugging, cuddling, kissing.

But nothing lasts, right?

I always think.

Why would Felix do such a thing to Beyomgyu. My childhood friend. It's clear he was jealous, right? But that went too far. He hurt him.

Beyomgyu already has a lot of trauma. Sure, he acts tough, always serious, but has a sweet spot, always working hard in school, always looking apropiet. He also knows taekwondo, just like Felix.

Now that I think about it. What if they are rivals? No, it can't be. Felix and Beyomgyu have a nice soul. But yeah, I still don't get it.

I took my phone and saw that I got a message from Beyomgyu. To be honest. I thought it was Felix. I miss him not gonna lie. These days, I've felt empty.

And I just don't know if I should forgive Felix. I don't know what happened. Why would he do that if Beyomgyu did nothing to him. Nothing at all, right?

But even if I wanted to forgive him. Will Beyomgyu agree? But today. He was holding hands with Wooyoung. Don't tell me. No it can't be

I turned my head eyes imidietly looking at the present Felix had given me for my birthday, which was a month ago. I smiled slightly, remembering the happy moments.

I then turned to the wall of pictures of us. I felt like crying. I miss the good times. I haven't spent time with him like that ever since, ever since...

Well.

Beyomgyu came...

I got up remembering all the events of that one day. Felix wanted to tell me something, but I yelled at him before anything. Those sobs from him still haunted me. They were so sad. But he did something wrong.

He hurt my childhood friend.

And why?

I don't know.

Was he jealous? Was he mad? Was he just not thinking? Or was it an accident?

I really don't know.

I just want everything to go back to normal, maybe? But those are personal thoughts that absolutely nobody knows about.

I feel like a traitor sometimes.

I feel regret?...