DANGEROUSLOVE ™

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HUNESTI MARIE HILL
19 , 6:45 am
thursday, june 3rd 

* JUST A FILLEEERRR *

although prince's death hit me hard i didn't wanna talk about it .

everybody was tryna get me to but i just wouldn't .

" holding onto it will only hurt you in the long run marie " my momma said through my airpods

we were on facetime , she swore she could crack me .

" well talking about it ain't gone bring him back ma ." i said as i picked up the last piece of trash i seen around my living room .

" well have you talked to sincere ? " she asked as i went over to my island were i sat down picking my phone up

i nodded .

" what's he saying" she asked with her nosey self

" maaaa " i whined she was all in my business

" okay okay , i won't ask anymore questions ." she said

i wasn't trying to be rude i just wasn't in the mood for talking .

scoob was actually being very supportive and was by my side through this .

he told me that he'd been fine if i had to grieve over prince because he understood that we had something going .

he also told me that he meant when he said he loved me and he'd wait for me until i was ready to pick back up what we had going .

i was honestly grateful for that , i knew that i would need a break a least til after the funeral .

prince said that he wanted for me to be happy and i think that scoob would make me happy ..

me and mali hung out yesterday , we talked and we both decided we wanted this friendship to be permanent and not temporary .

i liked her vibe and for the first time in my life i actually felt a friend in someone 

i know i only knew her for like 3 days .

today i had a therapy appt 10 am , i was kind of happy i needed to get some things off my chest .

after that scoob was supposed to come over here to help me with my next living room furniture and then i was going with him to have lunch with my brother chevo and his girlfriend .

i hadn't talk to charles since the night i found him half beaten to death .

prince's death was a eye opener , he was right about that grudge shit .

" well ima go baby , i gotta get some stuff done alright ?" my momma said

" okay bye momma , i love you ." i said

" i love you too baby " she said before hanging up .

i had been all night really , so i figured i'd take a nap since i still had 4 hours before my appt .

i set a alarm for 9 o'clock , cause i know it would take me forever to actually get up .

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i didn't even get to sleep till 9 i woke up at 8:12 to a nightmare .

i've had about 5 since tuesday , i hadn't told anyone yet .

i figured mali would be up she had to work today .

i called her and she answered on the second ring .

" good morning my love " she spoke putting that big ole smile in the camera making me smile

" hey bookie bearrrrr " i said smiling with her she brought joy to my morning .

" whatchu doing ?" she asked

" just getting up really " i said as i got out the bed .

i had to pee .

" what are you doing  ?" i asked

" im waiting on my uber so i can head to work " she said

" what time you have to be there ?" i asked

" 8:30 " she said i nodded as i pee'd

" ewww girlaaa are you peeing ?" she said laughing

" yes i am " i said playful rolling my eyes as i placed my phone on the counter so i could wipe .

after i finished i began to wash my hands .

" soo , how you feel abt meeting your brother today ?" she asked

" nervous " i answered truthfully

" i don't know if he's going to blame me for what happened to him or not " i said

" and honestly i can't blame him if he does " i said as she nodded

" well you won't know until later , and if he does it's okay you guys can work on the relationship and build it back up " she said as i listened to her

" you gone eat this morning ?" she asked

i stale faced her .. i hate that everyone treated me like a baby about my eating disorder

" yes mail i will eat something just for you ." i said rolling my eyes .

" no , don't do it for me do it for you ." she said

" my uber here but you gone stay otp with me okay " she said making me nod and smile

" i can't believe your sister and yo ma did yo car like that" i said

" they ain't nothing to me , ouu i can't wait to get out of this house" she said as she got settled in the uber car .

she sat in the back .

" don't say they not anything to you mali , i know that they've put you through a lot but i'm pretty sure they love you deep down " i said .

we continued to talk until she got to work safely, i let her go and by that time it was 9:10 .

i figured i'd get up and start to get myself together .