꧁𝐼𝑛 𝑀𝑦 𝐸𝑦𝑒𝑠꧂

Tired

?/?/? (Based on true story)

Tired

"Why do you look so drain out?" "why do you look sad?"  "Are you okay?"

Im just so tired of trying to please other

I'm just so tired of being excluded

I'm just so tired of not being able to say the right words at the moment

I'm just so tired of saying the wrong words at the wrong time

I'm just so tired of my own voice

I'm just so tired of not being pretty

I'm just so tired of being insecure of things I get told that I shouldn't worry about

I'm just so tired of being a teenager

I'm just so tired of being use

I'm just so tired of being at a constant competition with my health

I'm just so tired of saying that "I'm not good enough"

I'm just so tired of only eating a bag a chip a day cause the doctor said "you need to watch your weight" and now develops eating disorder

I'm just so tired of saying " it's not fair" when life just bullshits you around until you time it up

Why can't it just go?

" No I'm okay"

I say when In reality I just can't stand myself. I can't stand the way I look, walk, talk, think, and see. I can't stand the fact that I could've been out of this world but brung to stay a little longer. For what reason? To just live trough my self hatred, my self conscious? Why?

-DF