Note: Hey everyone bored tonight so I thought I would update this one. Yet another emotional chapter hope you like it.
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Chapter thirty three
When Paul picked Nicole up from the street in which she lay on, He took one look at her and she knew he could sense something was wrong. She remained silent as he asked her questions about what happened. She was just too much in shock, she also didn't want to tell him that Dwayne raped her while he was driving. She knew that he would get so mad that he might crash the car. After they reached the house Paul tried to call out to her but Nicole ignored him and ran to the bathroom. Paul followed her in there.
Nicole sat on the toilet and rocked back and forth. She knew she couldn't take a shower because the proof that Dwayne raped her would be washed away. Paul knelt down in front of her, and took her face in his hands so she would look at him.
"Baby what happened?" He asked her.
She looked him in the eyes, his eyes were so pure she wondered what it was like to have it so easy in life. She never did, so she just spit it out. "Dwayne raped me tonight."
Paul's hopeful gaze broke. "What?" he asked.
"Did just not hear me? I said Dwayne raped me."
"I'm so sorry I should have been there. I'm so sorry that I wasn't here."
She laughed it was cold and harsh. "Whatever, no one's ever there for me any way."
His blue eyes looked at her with hurt in them. "Baby don't say that, I didn't know, you told me to go on with the guys."
"It's doesn't matter Paul, the fact is I've always had to take care of myself. I mean what the hell was I thinking? Thinking that you would take care of me. That you would be there when you said you would be."
She stood up and tried to walk out but he grabbed her hand to stop her. "I'm so sorry that this happened to you. But I promise you I will make it right. You can't just shut me out."
"I don't care! Just leave me alone I don't want to pretend like this life is where I'll end up. I was fooling myself Paul."
"Baby no you weren't I love you so much. Just let me help you." He said crying and reaching for her.
She pulled away. "I'm going to the hospital to get a rape kit done, I don't want you to come with me."
"You can't just go by yourself, not after what happened tonight."
"Don't worry the police will protect me you know since I don't have anyone else."
"Baby that's not true." He said walking to her.
"I'm going, just don't follow me." She said walking away.
When she walked out, she thought she heard him whisper. "I'm sorry." But she ignored it and closed the door.
After the rape kit was done, Nicole drove back to Paul's house she noticed a light on she walked into the living room. Paul was sitting up on the couch watching a movie, he was wearing a white wife beater and blue boxer shorts. She felt her heart melt at the sight of him but she forced it back down. He noticed her walk in and spoke to her.
"Hey how did the rape kit go?" He asked.
"Fine." She said angry.
Paul sighed and shut off the movie, he walked over to her, and touched her arm.
"Look how many times do I have to say I'm sorry? I just I want you to let me be there for you. You don't have to go through this alone."
She pulled away. "But I am alone, you don't love me."
He looked shocked and hurt at her comment. "How can you say that? Of course I love you, why are you acting like this?"
"Because it's what I do, I like to push people away before they can leave me first."
Paul looked hurt and confused. "I would never leave you, we need to stick together. We're having a baby, and you're going through so much right now."
"No we don't I want to get rid of it."
"You can't you're already eight months along, she's due pretty soon. Please just let me help you."
"Look I know you think you're doing the right thing by trying to play the hero. But I don't need it, what would you know about hard you were born with a silver spoon in your mouth."
"That's not true I was homeless before, a long time ago."
"Big deal you're like a millionaire now, you live in a big fancy house, you can have any girl you want. You should go for it Paul, go find another girl."
"Stop it, you don't mean that." He said holding her close.
"Go find another-'
Paul cut her off, by forcing his mouth on hers, she didn't have a choice she gave in and let him kiss, her it was deep and passionate and she moaned. He pulled away and looked deep into her eyes. Still holding her arms so that she couldn't move.
"I know you still love me, and I know you're just in shock, and hurt that I wasn't there for you. I'm never going to leave you. I'm going to spend the rest of my life proving to you, that you're where you belong, and I don't want to find another girl. I love you Nicole."
She started to cry and fell into his arms. "Why did this have to happen to me?"
He held her and stroked her hair. "I know baby, I love you so much. I don't know why this had to happen, but I know that Dwayne's is an asshole and we will make him pay for this."
She looked deep into his blue eyes. "I can't testify, I'm scared I don't want to see him again."
Paul looked into her brown eyes with his blue ones. "You have to baby."
She started to cry shaking her head. "No."
He held her hand and kissed it. "I will be there for you every step of the way. I love you baby."
She was still crying looking at him, she had hurt him and said nasty things to him but he still wasn't leaving. He wasn't giving up on her. She had never met a person like that. "I love you too Paul, I'm so sorry for everything I said."
Paul looked at her and smiled. "I still love you anyway."
"Can you hold me tonight?" She asked.
"Yes baby I will hold you until you don't want me to any more."
"Not possible."
He chuckled and put his arm around her leading her up to the bed room, she realized then that nothing else in this moment mattered. Not, Dwayne, not the baby, not the way her life didn't turn out as she planned. She love him and he loved her, and that was all that mattered.
