The Faceless & Nameless

Back in Action

Dear this not-so dumbass journal my therapist thought would be a good idea for my "mental health",

Today is June 27th, 2023 – 0500

Today's the day I can officially start training and interrogate the cocksucker that ruined my life, mind, and body. I don't think Simon is too thrilled with me going back in full force. He says that I am still too 'fragile'. I love Simon. I really do. But his coddling is nonstop. I am just as lethal as he is, but he treats me like a baby sometimes. I know he means well because he cares for me, deeply. I see it every single day, but I am not a porcelain doll. The doctors say it's fine. So it's fine.

I think the course of action for interrogation is torture. Now, I know what you're gonna say Doc. Not only did this man abuse me for three years, but he single-handedly masterminded my capture and 323 days of around the clock torture over multiple countries. I think he can afford to lose a finger or two. Maybe even a toe. (Or two).

FLASHBACK

November 5th, 2015

It was my 18th birthday. Nathaniel had a whole day planned. We had been together for a year, but it was hush hush. One because he was my superior and two, I wasn't 18. Nathaniel was a mean man, but he was only mean when I messed up on drills or other training exercises. He rarely brought his anger outside of the base.

I had made it a habit to stay with him often. It just made sense. I was a Private, so I shared a room with three other girls. You can't exactly have privacy in that environment. "Romi, happy birthday, wake up." He moved some hair, gently, out of my face, letting the sunshine through my eyelids. I blinked a few times, before meeting his eyes. There was a tray breakfast.

I sat up, "Did you make me breakfast in bed?" I giggle. "I did! Happy birthday. I have a whole day planned for us. And an important question." He moved the tray over my legs. "An important question?" I ask.

"Yes, darling. Since we can be official today, pending the investigation, will you move in here with me?" He smiled his charismatic smile, I always found charming. I bit my bottom lip and nodded eagerly. "I knew you'd say yes. You can't stay away from me." He laughed and leaned into kiss my lips, sweetly.

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A few weeks later

"You stupid girl!" Snyder yelled. His voice bouncing off the walls. "I am so sorry. I didn't mean to drop it. It slipped right through my fingers." I squat down to clean the broken glass with my bare hands. I winced as a big piece glided through my palm, tearing apart the skin. Blood started to drip. "God, why can't you do anything right?!" He screamed. "Go clean yourself up! Then get back down here and clean your mess. I have to go into the base today. I want this house spotless by the time I get back. Is that clear?"

"Yes, sir." I replied with glossy eyes and a hung head.

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I managed to clean the entire house in five hours. I was preparing dinner, as Snyder walked through the door. He walks up behind me and wraps his arm around my waist. "Did you have a good day, dear?" I asked him, leaning back into him, slightly. "Could've been better but, I have exciting news for you."

"For me?" I turned off the stove and turned around in his arms. "I have your first deployment orders." He smiled, proudly. My heart sank. I knew it was only a matter of time. And whilst I was very excited to get my first orders, it was still terrifying.

"Thank you, sir." I smiled and wrapped my arms around his neck. "You're welcome, my heart. I fought for the best tour. With me, too." He squeezed my body to his a little tighter. "When do we leave?"