JIARA one shots

Insecure

TW:Self harm and passing out and slight mentions of starving yourself

JJ's POV:
Me,Sarah,JB,Pope,Cleo and kie are all in our usual spot drinking well almost everyone kie isn't drinking anything which is strange but I guess she's been acting strange lately idk I can hardly remember the last she ate and she's wearing a jumper it's like fucking 40 degrees. She's been acting weird lately so I decided to ask her

JJ whispers: Hey you ok?
Kie whispers back: Yea fine
JJ says quietly : u sure your just really quiet ?
Kie: I said I'm fine drop it
She said with a sharp tone
I obviously know she's not fine so I say
JJ: look Im sorry but you clearly NOT FINE
I say getting mad why is she lying to me
Kie: SORRY TO BREAK IT TO YOU BUT I AM

Everyone look up and stares at us
JB: Everything ok
Kie: FINE IM GONNA GET SOME AIR
Kiara said walking away
Pope: But we're outside
Kie: IM GOING ON A WALK ALONE
Sarah: okay if you say so
JJ:Kie wait up                                                                   

I say chasing after her but she runs into the bathroom and locks it
I knock on the door
JJ: hey I'm sorry kie just worried that all
Kie : well don't be can I just catch you up in a bit ok
I sigh  : fine I'll see you in a bit and I walk towards the others

KIARA'S  POV:
(warning TW)
I lock myself in the bathroom and go through my bag (shit where is it) I say to myself
(Here it is) in my hand is a blade it's an old knife of Cleo's she put it in the bin cause it broke but I kept the blade I roll up my sleeves I see so many scars some old some new and some even still bleeding but I don't care I deserve this I'm an horrible excuse for a human being and I'm so fat and ugly and disgusting I don't deserve to live here anymore
I make some more cuts on my arm I've gone quite deep ( I deserve  I deserve  I deserve it I deserve it I deserve it) I think over and over then I realised I've been in here for a good while I put a bandage on my arm and roll my sleeve down  and leave the bathroom god why is it so fucking hot

JB:kie foods here
Kie: coming
I'm not gonna eat anything tho
All of a sudden my vision goes blurry and I get dizzy I lean on a tree trying to support myself.

JJ's POV:

JB: Kie foods here
Kie: coming
I see Kie she doesn't look great then I see her look like she's about to faint I run up to her
JJ: Kie what's wrong you ok ? I ask with concern laced in my voice
Kie : I'm I'm f-fine
Kiara says breathing heavily
JJ: you sure

She nods and gives a weak smile I fling her arm round my neck  i feel some trickle down me I touch it

JJ: shit is that blood
All of a sudden kie goes limp in my arms
JJ: FUCK KIE. KIE KIE GUYS
I wave them over their running towards us and I lay her down

JJ: shit shit shit shit what do we do
Pope: first we ...
JJ: we what
Sarah and Cleo sat in unison : Is that blood?
JB: Fuck
Pope: right where is she bleeding first of all
JB: looks like her arm
He says while putting his hands around his neck
I keep shaking her hoping she'll wake up I've got tears in my eyes now
JJ : come on kie
Sarah: lift up her sleeve so we can try to stop the bleeding
Pope :good idea

I lift the sleeve up and see a bandage drenched in blood I unravel the bandage and we all gasp in horror cuts lots of them and they look deep and they don't look like an accident

Cleo: you don't think she um you know
JJ: of course she has don't get why tho she's amazing
My breathing getting heavier and I think John B noticed cause he said
JB: well sort her out ok don't panic
I don't say anything I just keep shouting kie to wake up I take my t shirt of and wrap it round her arm to stop the bleeding
JJ: please wake up I can't live without you
I whisper in her ear sobbing

(10 minutes later )

KIARA'S POV:

I wake up on the ground confused as fuck I see JJ crying on me my head is pounding and I feel as I could pass out at any moment

Kie: J what wrong why you crying
I said with a sympathetic voice
JJ: oh my god your awake I was so scared that you wouldn't wake up
I try getting up but JJ pushes me back down

Pope: you can't get up
Kie: why not
JB: look at your arm and tell us the truth kie when was the last time you ate
I sit the looking down at the floor well sand and I try to hold the tears back but I can't
Kie : I'm so so s-s-sorry
Sarah swoops in and hugs me
Sarah: it's ok

I would usually push away but then JJ joins the hug and like I would say push JJ away he's my boyfriend and we'll he's JJ

JJ: do you mind telling us why you did it kie
Kiara: cause I'm I'm ugly and fat and disgusting excuse for a human being
And I start crying uncontrollably
We all have a group hug then JJ whispers
JJ: you are the most amazing precious important out of this world beautiful person I've ever met and I've met a lot of people and I know it's hard but do you think you could eat a little thing it doesn't have to be big maybe just even an apple while pope sorts out you arm

I just nod knowing no matter how hard I try they won't take no for an answer
Then we all just at the beach and surf after I ate something and got my arm sorted and to end the day JJ and I kiss it went from the worst day to the best I love JJ and he loves me  it's perfect it could not be better

And I fucking love it!
P4L