It's within the human-nature to look for a soulmate .
To be warmed up when you see an old couple walking hand in hand and totally in love .
Some people would even say you have to make sure that the person your in love with is THE soulmate
Cuz soulmate are supposed to be forever and to love u anyway and get your back whenever and for whatever and accepting for who u are .
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And that the mummbo-jumbo shit hippies sell ,lady's and gentlemen !
What ? you thought I was one of them ! 😂
Nahhh dudes I'm not !🤦♂️
I do believe In love .. but i also believe it will fades .. I do belive in marriage but I also belive in divorce and fight and hurt and cheatings .
Don't ask me why I'm not all for it
And don't fucking try to shrink me either , my friends already tried no use 😂
^ I was raised in perfect family both my parents were so in love with each other ( hell my dad use to write poetry to my mom .. he used to send us away sometime to have the house for them selfs 😂)
But that's still doesn't explain why I don't belive in love or marriage ..!
I grew up seeing people around us go through tough patch .. I grow up seeing married couple destroy each other ..
I didn't know a husbands can do shit like that to their wife's .. I didn't know how fragile a women can be after her lover break her heart ..
Even now looking around me I relaize it's tough to find someone and hold on to them .
And I know I could be self-Centered but atleast I know my shortcomings .. belive me I do!
But at the end of the day I think I'm just a pussy !
Someone who dose'nt want to gamble🃏♣️
Cuz nothing scares me more then marrying someone and being all head over heels for each other just to find out the next day they don't want me, nothing terrifies me more then being intimate and close to someone and then watch them become strangers again .
So Basically I would do anything except get married or fall in love 🙅♂️, I would tear my own face then go there ..
what I don't like about it is the 50-50 gambling chance of finding ur not a match .
Damn this shitty app ....!
I'm starting to think I'm really damaged 🤷♂️.
Ps: I don't know why I got so affected by the the ppl around us and not my parents.. I guess I got to just go with the fact that when it comes to love I'm a pussy! 🤦♂️🏃
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Here I Go Again 🤡🔫
Short StoryIt's not a book by novelist or story . It's just my shitty thoughts in evryday things thats happened/ happening to me . I'm using this app to vent out !
