Now all I want is peace and quiet
Normani POV
Rushing through the hospital lobby searching the door numbers for #42.
37...39....40
42
I hesitated as I approached the door, I have to mentally prepare to downplay the severity of the situation to comfort him either way....I had to push down the thoughts of her even while I'm supposed to be present here.
My hand wrapped around the door knob and gently pushed down on it and pushed my weight against the door slowly. The door creaked open and I snapped myself out my thoughts as I looked from around the door. Jay was sleep and I mentally felt a sigh of relief.
I have a little bit of time to calm down and regulate my emotions right now.
I came fully in the room and as best as I could, quietly closed the door.
I made my way over to his bedside, hearing the subtle steady beeps from the EKG monitor and the other monitors. If one beeped end it wasn't very long before another one went off.
I sat in the chair that was nearby and rubbed my hands over my face before laying my head on the mattress.
My eyes closed and I allowed all the muscles within in my body to relax. Muscles and areas that I didn't even realize that I held stress and tension in.
My phone buzzed in my pocket and I sat back up, picking it up from my pocket. I saw a notification from lani, seeing that she had texted me.
Just as I was about to unlock my phone the door opened and creaked a bit loudly as the doctor stepped in. Once he saw that Jay was sleep and the look of tiredness and sudden panic on my face, his face softened and he mouthed "Im sorry".
Jay began to wake up just as the doctor closed the door and flipped through his papers.
"Hey big man how you feeling ?" The doctor said coming on over to Jay bedside.
Jay groaned and winced as he readjusted himself, being careful to not move his leg too much.
"Im fine, the meds still working" Jay sighed and I gently reached out to hold his hand. Rubbing my thumb over the skin of the back of his hand.
"Okay so we were able to completely remove the bullet, you were very lucky there weren't much fragments and that no major internal damage occurred" I sighed a sigh of relief and Jay gently squeezed my hand and placed his other hand on top of mine.
The doctor explained that he would need to be on bedrest but after tomorrow he'll be all set to be discharged. The doctor also mentioned prescription and possible physiotherapy.
After the doctor left Jay and I sat in a silence. I was lost in my thoughts not much concerned with what he was thinking or doing.
"Come here, I missed you," Jay said slightly moving over and patting the spot next to him.
"Oh- I dont think I should, I dont want to hurt you" I said and Jay shook his head
"Nonsense, you wont... look- please..."
I got up and got in the bed with him. He wrapped his arm around me gently pulling me in closer. I traced figures on his chest and allowed my body to relax on him but also being mindful of his leg.
"I love you...so much" Jay said
"I love you too"
And thats when it hit me, the sting. But how could I tell him that? How could I tell my boyfriend I no longer loved him that way?
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Ahhh im sawri it was a short one but I didnt wanna leave you guys hanging <3
