The memory of us - Lando Norris

20.

It was so awkward to be around Lando. Liv knew something was up, she wasn't stupid.
She stayed by Lando's side the entire time, until he got into the car, so I didn't have a chance to talk to him.

I had to wait until we were alone and that would be during the interviews after the race.  

Liv looked at me from the other side of the garage the entire time.
She probably thought I wanted to steal Lando away and unfortunately for her, that was exactly what I was planning to do.

"Hi" someone said as I felt a nudge. I quickly turned around and saw Max Fewtrell behind me.

I remembered everything, so I also remember how he didn't used to like me because I stole Lando's watches. Which was understandable.

"Hi Max, how are you?" I asked and smiled at him.
"Good, you?" He put his hands in his pockets. I nodded. "Good good" I lied because I wasn't good but I didn't really wanted to explain.

"So, Liv is back" he gestured at her. I nodded again. "I saw yeah" I didn't really know what he wanted to get out of this conversation.

"And what are you gonna do about that?" He smirked a little. As if he knew I wasn't gonna do nothing about it.
"I don't know yet, I can't force him to love me"

"He told me you remember everything?" He asked. Word travels fast. I did remember everything except for who assaulted me.
That night was still completely wiped out of my memory. Maybe for the best, I didn't really wanted to know what happened, but I wanted to know who was to blame for it.
I vaguely remember a guy, it was definitely a guy.

"I do, unfortunately too late" one fucking week too late. One week.
"It's never too late, I know how much he loves you" he looked at me, I could see how genuine he was.

"And I am gonna help you" he said. I looked at him, confused.
"So you like me now?" I chuckled. I remember how much he hated me, not without reason though, but I never thought he would help me to get Lando back.
"Maybe" he laughed.

"What do you have in mind?"

"I can't tell you, you have to trust me" he nudged me a little. I didn't know if I could trust him, but I had no other choice.
I kinda had to trust him because I didn't know how to get him back.

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Lando ended on P2. I was so proud and I could tell how happy he was.
After the podium ceremony, he still had to do his media duties and it was the first time I would be alone with him.

"Good job Lando, I am so proud" I said as we were walking to the media pen.
"Thanks Aimée" he quickly said. He was biting the inside of his cheek. "Look Aimée, I am so sorry for what happened yesterday. I-I didn't wanna..." he stuttered a little and sighed. "I didn't want to hurt you" he continued.

I shrugged. Why did I shrug. It was like I didn't care but I did.
I fucking cared so much.

"So you guys are back together?" I asked with a pit in my stomach.
"We are" he mumbled. Was he happy about that? I didn't seem like that.

"I love her" three little words that broke my heart. We never said those words to each other, or maybe once on accident.
And there he was, telling me how he loved someone else.

It was probably exactly how he felt when I pushed him away, when I started dating Liam.
Fuck, it hurts so much.

Where was Kara when I needed her. She would know exactly what I had to do, or what to say. What did he expect me to say?

"And I love you" I blurted out. He stopped walking and looked at me. "Don't say that Aimée, please don't"

And for one quick moment, I saw the love in his eyes again but this time, he was looking at me.