Chapter 11- Bucky

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Warnings- Swearing, Mentions of Miscarriage, violence, and overall warnings.

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"The reason you are bleeding heavily is because trauma on your stomach has caused you to have a miscarriage Miss Laufeyson" the doctor says her eyes soft and her voice even softer yet the words hit full force like a metal fist gripping around my heart causing the breath to get knocked out of me making me shake my head in horror as Wade's hand squeezes mine.

"No- I" I say in denial my other hand going to my stomach in protectiveness as sickness rises up my throat in a promise.

I am pregnant...

We finally got pregnant.

I put the missed period down to stress while on the run it wasn't irregular to miss months when the stress was high "I am sorry for your loss-" she begins but I reach out gripping to her like a lifeline "save it"

"Bunny" Wade whispers as the doctor looks down at my hand on her wrist my eyes pleading with hers "I'm sorry Miss but it's too late-"

"No there has got to be something right? Money isn't an issue if it's risky ill do it but I can't- I can't lose the baby I just need you to stop the bleeding it will be okay if you can just-"

"I am really sorry Miss but I promise there is nothing we can do it's too late" she says but I shake my head almost dizzy at my denial.

There had to be a way.

I didn't even get a chance to love the baby yet.

"Go" Wade tells her pulling my hold off her but I flinch forward trying to reach her "Wait!" I yell but Wade moves faster "Izzy" he says but I try to trash "no!" I scream as the door shuts behind the doctor "there has to be something! It will be okay right? My baby will be okay?" I ask seeing his face fall making me shake "no,no, no! It will be okay! It has to be okay I can't lose anyone else I can't I-"

"Bunny" Wade's voice makes me jerk forward but his arms wrap around me pulling me back to his chest stopping me from hitting the floor "You were having a nightmare" he whispers into my hair as my eyes water the pain to real.

"What time is it?" I whisper trying to stop my emotions from coming out in my voice but I fail my words breaking into a sniffle as he turns me around "It's early" he says wiping my tears "was it the same nightmare?" he asks and I nod leaning closer into him and he pulls me to his chest.

"Is it really a nightmare if it happened?" I whisper and he presses a kiss to the top of my head "did I wake you?" I ask but something tells me I didn't considering he was still dressed in the same clothes from yesterday.

"No" he says and I lean up seeing something on his face "what is it?" I ask and he looks pained "Bucky found us" he whispers and I freeze in his hold.

"What?"

"I think he followed you back yesterday he has been hanging around outside all night-"

"Shit"

"He doesn't know how to get in he can't find the entrance" he says moving his hand through my hair staying quiet for a few minutes as I consider what to do now.

He was supposed to have gone I didn't want him near tonight despite but the hatred I didn't want to see him hurt.

He had been hurt enough yet I don't know if I could hold back my anger.

"If you want we could let him in-"

"What?" I ask pulling back and frowning at his suggestion as his eyes search mine "I know you love them still baby if you wanted to all this could end we could-"

          

"Is this about last night?" I ask fully sitting up now and he sits up quickly following "no baby-" he says but I scoff.

Was this his way of saying he wanted me to leave?

Did he not want me here anymore?

Did he change his mind?

"Isn't it what you wanted?" he asks after a few seconds "didn't you want to make them pay and then get back with them after you destroy the team?"

My mouth falls at that my stomach flipping at his words.

"Is that what you think of me?"

"You changed the plans" he says "Bucky was supposed to be there tonight and you weren't meant to get Sharon to go public until tomorrow but you broke them up to get him out of the way. Baby I think deep down you wanted to save him" he says but I shake my head my sad tears now replacing with angry tears.

"No I wanted Steve to look bad-"

"Bunny It's okay-"

"Is this because of yesterday?" I ask and he frowns "what?"

"Do you not want me here anymore?"

"Of course I want you here! Are you really asking me that?" he asks offended but I shake my head "you're trying to send me off"

"I'm not trying to send you off Bunny! I saw the interview I saw how you got upset when she slammed Bucky. Love like that doesn't go overnight I know you care for them I just want you to be happy no matter the ending"

"Happy?" I ask upset getting up completely anger rising in me "you really want me to be happy? Then let me show you what will make me happy!" I snap as I open my bedside drawer pulling out a gun "Bunny no!-" Wade quickly gets up trying to get to me but I just smile coldly his words hitting something deep in me.

Because as much as I deny his words that weakness for my first loves burned in my chest more than I care to admit but it didn't matter.

They took my world.

"You want to see what it's like to have my love? Then see it" I snap as he tries grasping me but It is too late as I transport outside.

My feet hit wet concrete as I transport my legs being hit by the cold morning air as footsteps in front of me stop as he senses me.

His back straightens, his old leather jacket is wet under the rain which falls down slowly making the silence louder.

Despite not seeing his face I knew it was him able to feel him out in a room without seeing him and he has always been the same with me.

The team used to joke that me and Bucky were soulmates. Our past and our connection were like no other that even Steve got jealous at times.

"Doll?" he asks his voice weaker than I remembered as he slowly turns his gaze finding me.

His deep blue eyes were red looking haunted as he blinks a few times as if to see if it was really me. His jaw falls in surprise as I see a stumble across his sharp jaw has grown leading down up on his more prominent cheekbones.

I can see he had lost weight the super solider almost looking the same size as Sam Wilson.

"It's really you" he whispers his voice tormented suppressed by the fear of coming closer.

It was evident he had been crying making my heart hurt but I fight it down.

He destroyed everything.

I lift the gun and his eyes dilate at the action but he makes no move to move out of my aim.

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