Read it with music, I recommend it)
I moved uncomfortable in my bed, the dream didn't come to me, and even though it was already quite late, tomorrow I would have classes and I would surely be sleeping in them.
Hours, days, weeks, three exactly, three weeks of not seeing him, not listening to his jokes, his nicknames, his cheeky flirtation, without feeling his hand around me, I haven't seen him since the time they threw a cigarette on my leg, in which I still have a small scar.
After they put us in the trucks, they brought me straight to my house, without giving me any explanation or telling me about his condition.
He had been calling him, he sent him messages, emails, mailboxes, and nothing, he didn't answer, he read them, he listened to them, but he never answered them.
"Tom Kaulitz, beats a cameraman for defending his conquest, let me say, poor girl, he knows what kind of man he is related to"
Those and more things were what were said, he warned me, he warned me about all this, the scandal, the rumors, but he never told me that he would ignore me leaving me completely worried.
I didn't care about my name, or what was said about me, I cared about him, I cared that they didn't hurt him more than they already did. To the point of not letting him have a quiet life.
Of course I was angry with him, but more than that, I was worried, and I wanted so much to see him, talk, even if it's just knowing that he's okay, just that..
I heard how my window was forced, being opened instantly, I turned quickly, with my heart in my mouth, but my mind went blank when analyzing who was in front of me.
I felt like the soul was returning to the body, but something inside my stomach didn't stop moving, it was annoying.
Butterflies.
I got out of bed quickly and walked towards him in the same way, I hugged him, running my hands around his neck, hiding my face in his chest, feeling how he squeezed me even more against his body, while his hands rolled around my waist.
I was confused, angry, excited, cheerful, in love?, I didn't know that yet, but what I did, is that I had too many emotions together, that was bad.
I separated quickly, and my gaze changed radically, returning to an angry one, but seeing him there made me so weak..
"What are you doing here?" ─ I said trying to sound annoyed.
─Maddy... "I whisper, and when he saw that my expression would not change, he spoke again. "I know that my attitude in these weeks was not the best, I should have communicated with you, I should have looked for you, I'm so sorry..." I whimper.
I sigh heavily, I don't want to see it, not like that.
"I was in crisis all this time, thinking about what will have been about you, Worried, every minute, there was no moment when my mind did not wander to look for you in my thoughts." I passed my hand through my hair, showing despair. "And you... You didn't even dedicate yourself to calling me or with just a small message, it was more than enough, it was really enough to calm all my nerves.
"I know, I know, I know it was very bad not to talk to you, but I was afraid of what you would say, or what you will think of me after that day, or what is being disseminated on social networks, I was afraid.
"Were you afraid?" I spent day and night, calling, writing, recording voice messages, and I think the last one I sent was an hour ago, if I was upset with you, do you think I would be sending that day and night? ─ I swallowed saliva, I felt my heart oppressed. ─ you didn't even think about how I felt when I didn't know anything about you.
"What didn't I think of you?" You were my thought until when I slept, there wasn't a second in which he wouldn't think of you, but I felt guilty, because I knew that your life was being ruined because of me.
He approached me slowly, with his watery eyes, I looked up, because of the obvious difference in height, to have him in front of me, after so long in which I wanted this, I could not describe it.
─I understand if you no longer want to know anything about me, or that you no longer relate to me anywhere or network, I will talk to some technicians so that they delete any type of photo or video in which you are involved...─ their gaze slowly lowered towards my lips, which I instinctively. "I just want to apologize for all the bad time I put you through, maddy, I never wanted to hurt you."
"That's the problem, you haven't done it yet." "No longer waiting, I took it from the back of the neck, attaching our lips, doing what we wanted to do so much, feeding our hearts.
It was a sweet kiss, with no second intentions, his hands took over my waist, squeezing this, wrapped my arms around his neck, his lips moved to the beat of mine, knowing that they were destined to be together, and that in any case they would find a way to get together.
We separated by the stupid lack of air, our eyes connected and our foreheads together, both trying to catch our breath.
─I'm sorry I shouldn't have done it-─ I couldn't even finish talking, when I was devouring my mouth again, this time his hand went up to my cheek, leaving small caresses on this one.
I pass his tongue through my lower lip, asking for access to enter my mouth, which was clearly granted quickly.
We started walking backwards, dropping my body on the bed, while his fell slightly on mine.
We separated again, this time smiling, because of the thousands of feelings we had just discovered, it was simply wonderful.
"Let me stay, only tonight..." he asked almost in a whisper.
I separated it from me, and I moved, to lie on one side of the bed, patting the other, giving him a positive answer to his question.
He smiled and settled down next to me, both looking into our eyes, both still trying to process what had just happened, and the risks that this itself brought with it, but it didn't matter, not yet.
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