Osamu Dazai x Reader oneshots

Don't leave me alone.. w.i.p

Timeline

Dark era ! Dazai is 18 while reader is 19 .. 

Reader = Y/N (Fem)

! TW !

Mentions of $ucid3 , self harm, mafia (Ofc) and some fluff (Osamu writes smth with no smut? shocking!)

 Songs id rec while reading! (Ill let you know when to start the song, when i say "1,2,3 Go!")

- Step on me The cardigans

- Problems Mother Mother

- O my heart Mother Mother

- Arms tonite Mother Mother

- Not Allowed Tv Girl

- Twilight Boa 

Authors note: I haven't written since my last fanfic.. I think i was in middle school for the old ones? now im in Highschool so maybe my writing is more better? + Im making a discord server! 

The word "You" is used ALOT here sorry 

                                            ! Prologue !

     On a rainy Sunday night, you decide to check up on your "Close" friend Osamu, you didn't really like him all that much due to how much he jokes about committing suicide. But there was this era around him? it made you want to learn more about him, know what's he's hiding. Plus, he hasn't come to work at all for these past 2 weeks. it's to the point that even Chuuya is worried about him so you couldn't just help yourself to take this chance to check on him and gain his trust, maybe even his heart. After this long thought of thinking you head to the port mafia's headquarters to ask Mori the boss for Osamu's address which to your surprise, he gave you it just like that, no questions asked no nothing.. it felt like Mori has something planned? or maybe he already knew about what's happened to Osamu. On your way-out Akutagawa bumps into you and for some odd reason he mumbled something then handed you a pair of keys? why would he have the keys to Osamu's place? Guess you'll figure out later for all you know maybe this is Osamu's way of having you come over to his place in such a sicked minded way.

                                              ! Part 1 !

You're outside of Osamu's place, you thought he would be living in a nice house or apartment due to how bratty he acted but... A WHOLE SHIPPING CONTAINER? Why did Osamu pick to live in a shipping container out of all places? You assumed maybe you could get him to move in with you instead if everything goes all well tonight. You knocked on the door but there was no answer you knew he was home; you could hear his muffled sobs coming from inside the container. "'samu, I know you're in there... can you please open up the door?" you asked, still no response from him. but what you did hear was a table being knocked down and a loud door slam. Y/n sighed and pulled out the keys Akutagawa gave you earlier, Osamu wasn't letting you in anytime soon and clearly something was wrong, so you HAD to force yourself inside his "House", you put the key in the hole and slowly unlocked his door and opened it then closing the door behind right after entering. Y/n looks around the place and find multiple... bloody bandages? his place was messy, filled with alcohol bottles and what seemed to be his guide to suicide book's pages all over the room and the table that was thrown down earlier. You walk towards the only door left in the room which would be his bedroom and slowly open the door. (You can play the first song now!) His room was way worse than what you saw earlier, he had multiple things in there that seemed like failed attempts, used already. But there he was, he was sitting down on the ground holding a knife to his chest. Was he actually going to...? Without even thinking you quickly run to him pinning him down on the ground and taking the knife out his grasp. Osamu was cold, pale and he was shaking, he looked to be in pain from the pressure you put on his arms. his normal bandage around the eye was nowhere to be seen so you could see his full face he had tears running down his face and his expression was more shocked than anything else you've ever seen. He spoke no words he only tried to push you away off of him which he successfully does he then wiped his tears away and acted like if nothing just happened, he was throwing a facade.... did he really think you was that dumb to fall for one when you JUST saw him crying?