Time isn't real there's no way I walked thru this many days and nights and stayed alive
There's no way I perceived this many different angles
There's no way I am here and have been there
My body is just a warship
belonging to a corporation posing as a big nation
My body is an arctic frozen layer in your massive aircraft carrier
My body is experiencing the show you laid before it
You called it space and time
you have successfully deceived
my perspective once minute
now enlarged
my clock once frozen
now burning
I am awakened and above the bar
I passed every test
thou shalt not deceive me
I remained in your narrow walls
walked down your hallways with the one track mind you'd enforced
now you pinch my nerves when i speak freely
Thank God the love is over
I was grieving so harshly about it
Now I see I'm just a floating dream in some sort of time and place (and outside of it)
A void
Ovid
Your love means nothing as your love for her means nothing
Your infatuation for others is boring
I may be swung one way by other ships and if the ocean tilts me then so be it
I am watching a violent show and I'm experiencing it
I'm outside of it, as well
Good for you, to be so boring
Bore me with your incapability of experiencing the new
The higher strings
Stay below and rot
I will ask for too notch on the grandfather clock
Your game is life
Your game is perspective
I miss my old innocent viewpoint
and even the fearful viewpoint
now it's larger than both
No duality
I'm just watching
Poison my ship
Send me fumes
Derail me
why am I still here
(And where)
Because what rooted me to time was my family, my connection, my oxytocin
and when I am starved and isolated I am meant to kill my own self out of survival
I'm a floating spaceship or balloon
The last man to tie me to his wrist has failed me
the biggest let down of all was also the truest love
your scar on my soul is ridiculously cosmic and ridiculously comical because it never meant a thing
It's all nothing
I can't accept love ever again because it's all nothing
They said love or death and I'm in between
No one can do much of anything but pester me and the irony is that it's the biggest waste of their own time
I watch them turn tender hearts to stone
I will be neither
Open my Craft
Merkabah heart math
No mark because it's not love
Your trick is so ridiculous it almost works
You were a roadblock for a place above the water
outside the joke
You distracted me while I burned in the Van Allen Belt
Now I'm walking on stars and changing dreams
new fabric,
new television
new show
God I wish it would all end
