So Close Yet So Far

Chapter 1

        When you're born you're given half a pendant and the other half is given to your one true love, your other half, your soulmate. Whenever you grow near to your significant other your half if the pendant grows warm, while the farther the distance you are the colder the pendant gets. So whenever you're ready, you can begin your journey to find your true love. This is my story, my journey to find my soul mate. This is how I found my person.
I keep hearing the beautiful stories of the people around me and how they found their soulmate, while I'm here, alone, and they're enjoying the rest of their eternity with their beautiful partner.
"I was walking down the street, completely lost, and suddenly my pendant got warmer and warmer with each step I took. I held on to it with my hand and the heat kept intensifying so as my heart beat. There were so many people around and i couldn't tell who it would be. Suddenly my pendant started getting cooler and i knew I was now farther away from him." Jessica, my cousin, said as she held James's hand. "I turned around and at the same second he did too. It was like the entire world stopped spinning and time froze. All I saw was him. I walked towards him, as did he, and once we were face to face our pendants connected to each other and sparks flew as he held my hands. I never felt anything so magical in my life." She smiled and James kissed her cheek and held her hand. "Aren't they just adorable! Just like us when we first met."Mom said as dad got nearer to her and grabbed her hands and kissed them.
I sat there listening to them as they went on about how amazing their lives are and how complete they feel now. This is exactly why I want to find my person. I want to feel whole, I want to feel loved, I want to hold my special someone in my arms and love them forever and more, but I haven't found my person. Jessica found James without even trying, just by sheer coincidence, as for me I have wandered off sometimes in hopes I actually do find my person.
I want to know how it feels when sparks fly, when I finally get to look into my soulmates eyes, feeling completely happy and euphoric. I want that 'I'm so happy I found you' moment. I want that 'I don't know how I survived without you for so long.' feeling. Is it too much to ask for?
The only thing stopping me from going out and finding my person is that if I go out to find her and she's not ready, it could end horribly. You see you always hear the good, happy, stories but never the sad ones. Let me tell you what happens if you go out to find your soulmate and they aren't ready. their love, or potential love, for you dies. And you spend the rest of your life without your other half, feeling empty for the rest of eternity.
"I was so foolish! I went on a long adventure to find her, I searched high and low, wanting her, needing her,because I needed to feel complete. I was selfish. I didn't think about her and whether or not she was ready. I was a foolish child. Barely at the age of 17 and i thought I couldn't live without her, and i was right. But it turned out she wasn't ready, and now because I was a fool and rushed into things, I lost the most important thing for me." Alfred, a very old man that lives across the street from me, said as he wiped a tear away from his wrinkly cheek. He is now 57 and as he says is "miserable."
I feel horrible for him and as does everyone else does. We all take him as an example to not rush things.when things have to or need to happen they will. Whether it be coincidence or by your adventure to find your other half.
Sometimes while I'm laying under the tree behind my house I think about what she may be doing, or how we would meet, or if she may be looking for me right now and i don't even know it. I get excited and happy, but also upset and sad, because she's probably not looking for me. She's probably not even thinking about me because she's not ready. My parents tell me not to rush it because I wouldn't want to wind up like Alfred. They keep telling me that I'm only 20 years old and i have my entire life ahead of me and that when its time I'll know. I hope they're rig and I hope its "time" really soon. I know for a fact that I will be beyond happy when I find her. As for now I hope my beautiful everything is safe and happy.

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