☆ - 𝐁𝐔𝐓𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐅𝐋𝐘 𝐄𝐅𝐅𝐄𝐂𝐓

Going to be okay

"Have some rest, mk?" I smile while placing the sheets on-top of her body, "Everything's going to be ok." I nod. The doctor comes in with some sheets, oh?

He tells me to come outside, only me not Bill. I look at him confused. "So.. have some news." He begins to speak, "Good or bad?" I raise my eyebrow, it's going to be okay, it's going to be okay, it's going to be fucking okay! I remind myself, my fists are already clenched, don't loose control.
      "Both—" In mid sentence I stop him from speaking with my voice raised,
     "Just fuckin' speak!" I rub my nose. He flinches, pussy.
        "Are you or her a twin?" My eyes widen, "Yeah?!"
"We got our tests back and we saw two separate heart beats, any of you guys expected this?"

"Does this look on my face show that I expected this?!" My voice cracks and goes more high pitched, I clear my throat immediately.

"Ok sir, calm down. One of the heart beats is fading but the other is still in good terms, how did this occur?" He asks, "She got punched.. in the stomach." I squint my eyes, "That's what did it, yup."

"Is— is the other one gonna be okay?" My voice cools down but the tightened grip of my wrist didn't, not even a little bit. He shakes his head, No. This is going to ruin her, oh my God..

I lower my eyes down, I feel tears forming. I'm about to break. "We are so sorry." I bite my lip and start walking the other direction to the toilets. "Oh my God, I can't do this." I look around and start blinking quicker, I can feel my eyes burning. I find the bathrooms and walk inside. I burst into tears as I grab onto the sink, staring at myself with only pain streaming through me.

My eyebrows are arched and my eyes are now red, I punch the mirror with all my energy and anger, "Ah!" I moan, I look at my fist. It's full of blood and cuts because of the shredded glass. "I can't do this." I sob. "Tom?" Bill walks inside, my heart drops. "Bill one of the baby—" Before I fall down he grabs me and wraps his arms around me, I start to cry on his shoulder. "I know.. I know." He speaks.

"It's going to be okay, Tom. Remind yourself that. It's going to be okay." I face him. "Is it though? Is it going to be okay?" My voice shakes. He nods. "What about London, this is going to kill her."

"That's why you're here to make her feel better, come on." We start walking once again, Im going to fucking kill Daisy.

**

London looks up at me, she looks so exhausted and pale. "I need to tell you something, baby." I sit down next to her and brush my hand against her red cheeks. "We where supposed to have two baby's but now we only have.. one." I say causing her expression to change. "Really?" Her voice is more low and sad. My goodness.

"Yes." I nod. London presses her lips together and looks away to the other direction to stop herself from crying. She takes her hand and smashes it across her mouth and begins to cry, never ending tears. "I know baby, I know." I take her head to place it on my shoulder. I look at Bill, I swear he's about to cry. He tilts his head and nods. "It's going to be okay though, yeah?" I face her while smiling weakly.

She sniffs through her nose and whimpers, "We just lost a baby," She arches her eyebrows, "Don't do this to me my love." My voice cracks, we both hug each other, my arms wrapped around her waist, her arms wrapped around my neck. "We are going to take care of the little one." London tries to smile but immediately cries. My heart shatters feeling her shaking beneath me.

"I love you." I kiss her forehead softly, "And it's all going to be okay." I whisper on her ear, rubbing her back in an reassuring way. I love her so much that it hurts. I want to always be near her and protect her from everything.
"Is it going to be okay Tommy cause I swear I can't breathe—"
"Take deep breaths my love, deep breaths." Her little nickname for me with her British accent makes my heart smile, she's so special.

A nurse comes in with a smile glaring across her face, "Would you like to know the gender of the baby?" I look at London and so does she, "Yeah!?" We shout in union, "Here you go." Ma'am hands us the sheets.

"You first," I giggle, "Oh my God!" She starts sobbing again, at this point I don't even know if these are hormones or just happiness. The sheets read, 'girl.' With a pink over line. I smile and grab L's hip to bring her closer to me, "She's going to be just as beautiful as you." I bite my lip.

"When is she going to come back to uni?" I ask the nurse, "Depends how she's feeling, her decision." She smiles. I look at London with both my eyebrows raised. "You wanna?" I speak while over exaggerating the n's. "Sure." This time she doesn't smile, she zones out. It's because of the news. She's never going to be the same happy girl and I wish I could help her. "I'll take care of you, baby." I run my fingers through her curly hair and trace my thumb around her freckles. "I'm so tired." She murmurs.

                                                     ________________________

"Are you OK?" London asks as I have my arm around her waist to lead her to our room. "Of course, are you?" I look down at her as she looks up at me doe-eyed. I don't even know anymore. I cant process any of this." She looks down.

We arrive at my room while Bill already went to him and Gustav's. I pick her up gently and place her under the covers of my large bed, ( I ain't going to let her stay in that psycho's dorm. ) I help her take her clothes off and change into a shirt of mine.

"Tom—" She whimpers, "Its okay, sweetheart. I'm here." I wrap my body around her, my head on her shoulder. "I won't let anyone hurt you." I kiss the outline of her ear. "I'm so sorry." I whisper, "I love you." She replies. "Oh my love, I love you more than anyone." A tear drops down my eye. Why am I feeling so sad?