Estella's Pov
" Estella come here " Mrs Norman beckon me with her fingers
I know she's angry and it'll mean punishment , but if I disobey her she'll hurt me more
I move towards her slowly and stand in front of her
" open your palms girls " She raise her voice making me flinch
But I comply with her and forward my palms towards herSMACK
The stinging pain of ruler is immediate on my palms and my eyes fill with tears
" you know you're not supposed to play with Sophie's toys right ?"
I nod
She's mad because I played with Sophie's toys ? But she's my sister and I was playing with her
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" you're starting to become so disrespectful and ungrateful no wonder your family abandoned you "
I sob
Wasn't she my mom? I used to have mom and dad too but after Sophie's was born they told me to call them Mr and Mrs Norman. They loved me right ? I am being a bad girl that's why they are angry
" I wouldn't do it again mom " I apologize, because our teacher said if we apologize to others their anger reduces
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" What did I say about calling me anything other than Mrs Norman? You dumb stupid girl " She shouts
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" I am sorry " I apologize again . No wonder she's angry I'm stupid
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I can't hear her anymore . I can only feel the pain in my palms.
I can't breathe
It's hurting too much
I'll di--I jolt awake from my nightmare.
I look around the room and realize I am in my biological family house.
I bring my knees closer and rest my chin on it.
I am soaked in my sweat
I try to control my rapid breathing
Breathe in
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Breathe out
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5I repeat the process and slowly feel myself relaxing back .
I learned how to control my panic attacks when I had one of them and of the volunteers at the foster home noticed it
She helped me understand that I was not dying and to perform breathing techniques to prevent it
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Estella [ On Hold ]
General Fiction15 year old Estella never expected her to flip upside down in a span of few weeks . The unexpected death of her foster parents Getting a positive pregnancy test at 15 Learning about her biological family. Who apparently has been searching her fo...