so this is how it ends

metal

the clock's broken - or frozen - the hours refuse to pass

"you shouldn't have" oh really?

i had more to lose than you ever would

you would say anything to stop me from leaving

i'm stuck in the present daydreaming, or scheming?

(is there even a difference?)

teetered on the fence, four days too long

for you, my muse, i left myself battered and bruised

i can't even listen to music, the sounds drowned out

i know if anyone found out i would completely lose it

now my mind's shifted as these thoughts come and go

thank you, i guess, for now they form in prose

i'll write down all the things i hope to tell you some day

maybe then i'll have the courage to step out of my nest

it's the day the sun shines, the music comes back

everything will be as it was, at last

my intentions were always to go alone

i'm so sorry for dragging you down there with me

if i could, i would engrave our every word in stone

instead, we stuffed them in bottles to be cast out at sea

i tried my best to look for the hidden meaning, believe me

but if you find it, let me know

some day we can look back

with the same laughs we thought we already had

i'm grieving for them

it feels like i'm still at the wake

how long are funerals supposed to take?

i just know this one feels far too late

maybe it'll end once i learn to give more than i steal

i'd say take, but none of it really feels that way

or maybe it has nothing to do with me at all

maybe none of it ever did

i'm mourning a past that never even happened

now i stand in the kitchen

i eat this clementine by myself

and tell myself this is the greatest happiness

i've ever felt