Strings of Healing♡;

Visit to hometown (21)

Diana is to move out soon. My scholarship results are to be announced soon. If I don't get the scholarship, I'll have to get a job. Even if I get the scholarship I still would have to get a job. Nick is forcing me to visit father. As the days pass by it is getting harder for me to study as well.

I opened my eyes and shifted my position again. I can't sleep. The talk with Enzo is something that I can't really process. I DID that, me Lilac, the one who can't even look someone in their eyes, I stood up for myself.

Atleast I have Scott. I really didn't wanted to fall for a boy during college but here I am.

I caught myself smiling as I thought about the sweet times we spent  together. He saw my scars one but he didn't scold me about it. He just gets me.

I was able to get 2 hours of sleep before my phone rang.  Who is missing me at 5 in the morning. I picked up my phone without looking at the name and spoke,"who is it?" my voice coming out as mumbled words. I was finally getting sleepy and now this.

The other voice spoke,"Nicolas this side, sorry to ruin your sleep but it was important"

My perfect brother has something important to tell me? The one who was too ashamed to speak to me in school, the one who left me alone with our parents and moved out while I was asleep. Rage started building inside me and all the buried memories came back to life. He was gone for 4 years and today he has to talk about something important.

I took a long breath and asked,"What is it?"

"Dad died"

I stood up straight upon hearing those words, my eyes wide open. I thought I missed what he said the first time so I asked again,"What?! What do you mean he died? Is this a joke? When? How?"

"I didn't joke and you know it, I am coming to pick you up so send me your address, I will be there at 8" he said and cut the call.

He really doesn't likes talking to me or maybe he is too stressed right now. My father is no more. I don't know if I should cry or be relieved. Am I an orphan now?

Why don't I feel anything, he might be lying. I am really not ready for what awaits me. I quietly got out of my bed and got dressed. Just normal as always. I put my hair in a bun, washed my face and just waited. There was nothing else I could do. My thoughts only revolved around old memories. They're not colorful and vibrant they are dark and red.

"Where did the marks go" "You're useless, look at your brother" "Go die, you'll never be good anyways" "I wish you were never born" "Your mom hung herself because of you"

"You killed your mom, she didn't wanted a child like you either"

I"It wasn't me father, you were the one who killed her" I spoke my voice  shivering, my hand shaking and me trying to wake up the corpse before my eyes

"She was so done with you, taking care of was too hard for her. You'll be doing the household work now, there's no crying over spilled milk"

"I would've been extremely happy if you were the one who hung himself and not mom", he slapped me after hearing this, he beated me and Nick a lot that day.

"So inhumane", I snapped back to reality. Tears we're already building up in my eyes. I've never told anyone about this, I never intend to do so.

Nick arrived soon, his car looked new. He is also just a stranger to me, I don't know him. We are just same blood. I was standing right outside my apartment building. I thought he wouldn't recognise me but he did.

"Get in", he said with the cold expression he always had. I don't remember the last time I saw him smile. I have always obeyed him and did whatever he told me to do.

I got in and he drove us to the place, my home. I texted Diana to keep Luna with her for a few days and she agreed. She's such a lifesaver. Luna, Diana, Scott and his group has kept me sane all this time. I also texted Scott saying "I won't be going to college for a while." Sent. "I am visiting my hometown and will be back soon",sending....

"Have we reached?", I asked Nick.
"Almost", he replied.

That's why the network stopped working. Scott might be worried about me. I hope this ends well. "We are here", Nick said and parked the car. I was too scared to look up this whole time. This place has so many memories attached to it. Good and bad. I took a deep breath and got out of the car. My home. 

Nick leaded me to the corpse. Feels weird to say it but he was right and our father is gone. The house itself hasn't changed much, still grey, still lifeless. The pictures on the wall? there were none of them. Just bland boring grey box with 2 bedrooms, 1 living room, 2 bathrooms and a small kitchen.

I've always hated it. ALWAYS. I didn't had the courage to explore the whole house. We just went straight in the room and my father's lifeless body lied on the bed.
I asked Nick,"How did this happen?"

He took a deep breath and said," He had an overdose"

"When did you get here?"

"I told you I was to come here and visit him and this is what I saw"

"It is weird to have a corpse in the house no?"

"I'll take care of the funeral", he said. I took one last look at it and left the room.

Nick is lying, my father was too narcissistic to do anything that could harm him. He just used to drink but that too in a certain limit. The neighbours must've noticed something wrong before but nobody seems to know. Who opened the door for him when he arrived? He is lying and I know it. Nicolas killed father.

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