khwaab | completed.

aag lage chahe basti mae hum humari masti mae🏃‍♀️

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vridha's pov

abhimaan's words made me realise that no matter how much i try to mend us , unless and until he thinks we are worth the chance , its all going to waste

i don't get it

i seriously don't

if this is what he wanted since the start THEN WHY? why did he heal things inside me only to break them apart into pieces

why did he show me that i could feel loved without someone expecting anything in return, and then betray me

"what do you think of me abhimaan? WHAT DO YOU THINK OF US? DO YOU THINK EVERYTHING IS A JOKE? JABH CHAHO TABH BOLDO NAHI REHNA JABH CHAHO TABH BOLDO KI REHNA HAE , WHAT DO YOU WANT?"

i am done trying to find answers , trying to find solutions I AM DONE TRYING TO CURSE MYSELF, BLAMING MYSELF that everything that went wrong between us , everything that happened in the past

everything is my fault , i passed endless nights trying to figure out all the what ifs and i know i will find the what ifs in this situation too , but i am done.

pyaar karti hu mae abhimaan se , behat pyaar , khudse bhi zyada pyaar par mae abhimaan ko mere saath ese khelne nahi de sakti

i know he's not like my father , i know things are difficult for him too and trust me i even know that i want him more than anything , more than what we have going on between us and more than the possibility of what we could've had if that night didn't occur

he stood there numb

i just wish i could figure out what is going inside his brain, i wish i could figure out all his overthinking and give him solutions but he needs to listen to what i have to say

he needs to understand that even i am as hurt as he is.

but honestly all the energy left inside me kept on draining every second of his numbness.

"SPEAK ABHIMAAN, ANSWER ME"

i don't care if the fire is going to burn us down, we aren't leaving until we find a solution.

its either us saving each other and burning away all our problems and bad memories here, or its either we burn away our future.

ye sabh abh abhimaan ke haatho hae

"KYA BOLU VRIDHA, NAHI PATA MUJHE KUCH, NAHI SAMAJH AARA HAE MUJHE KI JO MAE KAR RAHA HU WOH SAHI HAE YA NAHI , I DONT KNOW WHAT I FUCKING WANT"

his loud voice made me look at him as if he was a stranger , he is not my abhimaan , honestly i don't even know who is my abhimaan anymore , was he always like this? did he always think we had no future and gave me subtle hints but i was too blinded by love , that i didn't notice?

"nahi chahiye tha kuch toh kyu mujhe tumhari pyaar bhari baaton mae phasaya? kyu mujhe safe feel karvaya? KYU MUJHE REHNE KO GHAR DIYA JABH TUMHE END MAE MUJHSE VOH CHIN NA THA? JAWAB DO MUJHE"