I can't sleep. I'm so nervous for tomorrow. Tomorrow is the first day of school. Well, at least for me it is. I moved from Missouri to California. I didn't exactly want to move. My mother and I moved to California because of a job offer. "Our lives are going to be better in California. My new job offers us a better home, a brand new car paid for by the company I'm going to be working in, and a much better salary.", my mother told me. All I kept thinking was "I don't care." I didn't care that "our lives are going to better". I didn't want to be leave my two best friends Nina and Jen. Most importantly, I didn't want to leave him. But I did leave them. I left him. I had to. I couldn't go back because of him. I would never tell this to Nina and Jen, but if I had to lose their friendship and have them hate me forever just to see Shawn again, I would. Of course that isn't possible. Why? Because before I left, I cheated on him.
~One week before moving to California~
Jonathan, my ex, and I were in my room sitting on my bed. You're probably wondering why my ex-boyfriend is in my room. Well that's because before we started dating we were best friends. Even after we decided to break up, we still remained best friends. Shawn got a little jealous every now and then, but he trusted me. "I'm moving.", I told Jonathan. "Where to?", he asked. "California.", I responded. "When are you moving?". "In a week.", I replied. "Why are you telling me this now?", he asked. "Because after today, I probably won't see you again in a long time.", I told him. "But what about Nina and Jen? Or your boyfriend, Shawn. Do they even know you're moving?". "I already told Nina and Jen and I already told them goodbye. Shawn was actually going to come right now so I can tell him that I'm moving. I won't see him again either.". I felt like crying but I didn't want to cry in front of Jonathan. It got quiet for a couple of minutes. "Rose?", Jonathan asked breaking the silence. "Yes?". "We won't see each other in years right?", he asked. "Um, yeah.", I told him giving him a weird look. "Well in that case,", he pushed me towards him and started to kiss me. I tried to stop him but he wouldn't let me. "Hey Rosie, I'm here -", Shawn walked in and stopped speaking. I didn't even hear my mom open the door for him. With all my strength, I pushed Jonathan away. I'll never forget the look on Shawn's face when he saw me kiss Jonathan. It looked as if he was stabbed 10 times front and back. I'll never forget seeing Shawn cry. He didn't exactly sob, but tears were definitely streaming down his face. He never cried. He didn't even cry when his mother died of cancer. "No Shawn, it's not what it looks like, I promise.", I told him after I stood up and pushed my ex away. He just looked at me. He looked sad. Then he looked furious. He stuck out his middle finger and left my room without saying another word. I fell down and tried to scream for him to forgive me but nothing came out. Jonathan got up and looked down at me and said, "Rosalie, I'm so sor-". "GET OUT!", I screamed at him. "Rose, please forgive me, I'm so so-". "SHUT UP! GET OUT OF MY HOUSE! I HATE YOU!", I screamed at him. I stood up to Jonathan's level and slapped him. I hated him so much at that moment. He was the reason I cheated on my boyfriend. Jonathan didn't even flinch when I slapped him. He just looked at me as if nothing happened and walked out. I started screaming. My mom came running in my room and she calmed me down a bit and held me while I cried. She started to tell me we would have a fresh, new start in California. To forget about everything. She didn't even ask what had just happened. She then started to tell me how excited she was about her new job. That's when she started telling me "Our lives are going to better....".
