"Call me crazy, maybe I'm insanely out of my mind but it'll never phase me
If I have to, I'm not afraid to save my heart for you"
- x -
Its so typical of me, I always want what I can't have and its been that way for so long. I always want a relationship that can never exist due to the situation. And in this case, I want you.
But I can't, can I?
The thing is, that doesn't stop me- my heart is much stronger, much more fearless, and more adamant than my brain is, so it takes control, and I follow its wishes, no matter what it tells me, even if I know that my heart will break. And this is exactly what happened with you.
I remember laying my eyes on you that first time in bootcamp. There was something about you that intrigued me, and the way we both talked to each other so casually, not feeling a shred of awkwardness, I knew that we'd have a strong friendship no matter what. You make me want to tell you things I didn't even know I had in me; I want to delve into my deepest, darkest thoughts and secrets that I never told myself.
Is it normal to feel this way? There's definitely something more.
The thing is that I feel that you want me too, somewhere. I'm being delusional, I know, but there's that bit of hope that won't die out. That glimmer is what keeps me waiting so stupidly for you. I can't help it though, because when I think of giving up, the memories flood in, all the several moments that we shared together. They're permanently etched into my mind.
So like a crazy fool, I will wait. I'm not afraid to save my heart for you, not at all.
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This Little Book | larry s. ✅
RomanceSo I’ve got this book. You might be thinking why? What’s the reason behind this state I’m in right now? It’s you. It’s you who is driving me insane. It’s you who makes me feel so confused. It’s all completely and utterly you. Don’t feel guilty t...
