Girls Will Be Girls- A Bullying Memoir

-Chapter 3-

I was feeling very depressed that my own "friends" had the decency to do what they're doing. I still wasn't speaking to them let alone I did not want to see them. I had classes with most of them, so I was given no choice. I couldn't really focus on class; my head just wasn't in the right space. I just did not feel safe at this school. This wasn't the first time that the girls have given me a hard time, but this one was different. It was more extreme, and they have definitely crossed the line. I've told the principal and guidance counselor at the time that this was happening and nothing was done. It was done over and over again still nothing. It was getting ridiculous at this point.

7th period, the day was almost done and over with. I did not enjoy going to school let alone this school because it was filled with overcritical people. I'm in my child development class. I sat in the far left of the room having the same class with "B", "M" and "BR". "BR" was sitting behind me who is a friend for "H". He asked me "what's wrong?" cause he noticed I was upset. I did not have anyone to confide in and I thought at the time that I could trust him. So, I told him everything that was going on and I said something in regards of getting her fired from her job because I knew her boss and my dad worked for her. She was a caretaker for the elderly, and I felt that because her actions don't reflect on caretaking. He kind of agreed and that was the end of the conversation. I see "B" get up from her seat coming up to the teacher asking her to go to the guidance counselor's office. The teacher said, "yeah go ahead". I was getting suspicious, and I was like that's it I'm ending this now. I waited about a couple of minutes until getting up asking the teacher the same question and she said "yeah".

When I say I booked out of the classroom, I meant it. I left my stuff behind because I had the same teacher for last period of the day, so I wasn't too worried. I followed "B" up to the school since the main building is on the other side of the other sectional buildings. She was not aware that I was behind her. I followed her all the way to the counselor's office. As I'm walking behind her still. I see all of the girls in that office. It was a small office not big enough space to fit 5 girls in this one little room, this is including me. I told the counselor "I know what's going on here. I'm being set up". The girls started lying and denying their intentions when I knew for a fact, they're setting me up for failure. There were only two chairs in the room, so I took one and "M" takes the other one while the rest of the girls were standing.

The girls were telling the counselor a complete false narrative about me but that's only because of "M". She told me directly to my face that I "betrayed" her. I yelled and said "I did not betray you or any of you on anything. This is all a misunderstanding and a lot of miscommunications on your part". All of the girls started attacking me verbally as the counselor was watching all of this go down. Belittling me and calling me a "bad person, I wasn't a good friend and was never a good friend". Saying a bunch of words that have hurt me over the next 5 years. The last thing I remember is "K"'s last words to me was "We don't want to be friends with you anymore, you're nothing but drama, and we're tired of it so we don't want to be around you. We're not trying to be mean. We're just trying to look out for ourselves and each other". When I heard those words, I wanted to cry, but they're trying to get a reaction out of me so I remained calm and can't help, but feel so conflicted. It was shocking by the words that came out of that girl's mouth, all of their mouth's. The confusion that I had to endure all day. I've suffered, until "BR" came in and I was like "what the hell". The guidance counselor had to brush him off telling him to "go back to class" then he walked away. I knew exactly why he was there.

The girls shared their last words with me which I did validate at the time, still confused and hurt that I started to break down. The counselor kicked the girls out leaving me by myself with her. All I could think about in that moment is that why did that counselor just allowed those girls to verbally attack me. They are entitled to their feelings and opinions, but it was still demeaning. The counselor and I are alone in this room. I told her my side of the story. Those girls have been treating me unfairly and very demeaning putting me in a very uncompromised situation. This is my last year, that is definitely not what I looked forward into my senior year. She said "those girls are extremely jealous but there's nothing I can do for you at this time". Are you kidding me??? She was aware that those girls were harrassing me, the name calling, the whispering right in front of me on purpose to a point to where I can hear them. Nothing was still done about it.

I asked her "if I could call my mother", who I love very dearly and she said "yes" and let me use her phone that's owned by the school. I got a hold of my mom and I broke down crying. She asked me "what was wrong? what was going on?". I told her the whole situation and that I really wanted her to pick me up and she agreed. My mom picked me up and I told her what those girls have said to me and she was so upset for me. She gave me a hug and told me "we're going to talk to dad about it". I said "okay"