Not In That Way...

Chapter 3 // Here goes nothing...

Ashley Johnson

Today is not my day.

This time last year, if I was trapped in a old empty store room with Bradley, I would have loved every single second of it. It would have been so much fun... Two best friends laughing and joking around with each other...

"I guess we both have an hours detention then" Bradley knocked me out of my train of thought.

My gaze focused back up to Bradley's face. I gave him a small nod, rolled my eyes the other way and stood up. I squeezed my petite body passed Bradley (whose body resembles the hulk when stood near me, I guess he's been working out) and walked slowly towards the door. Once again I banged hard on the door... No use. No one came to my rescue. Has my knight in shining armour been hit by a flying burrito?

Sliding my back down the floor, I dared to sit on the dusty carpet that doesn't look like it has been cleaned since I was running around in nappies with my curly hair in pig tails. Bradley sighed extremely loud. Probably trying to catch my attention.

He sighed again.

And again.

"Will you just quit it already?" I near enough shouted at him. To start with Bradley looked confused but then a smile formed on his lips. Now I'm confused. "Why are you smiling?"

"Because you have finally said something to me since being stuck in here" he chuckled looking down at his feet.

"Trust me on this you would prefer it if I was quiet" I snapped back causing him to jolt his head up in surprise.

"So you clearly haven't read the letter yet" He stated his hand motioning towards my bag where his little letter was poking out.

To begin with I looked at him confused. "How would you know?" I questioned him.

"I just know." A Smirk played on his lips.

"Tell me?" I pushed.

"Read it now" He answered looking deep into my baby blue eyes, resulting me to turn away and reach for the 'important' letter.

Well here goes nothing...

Dear Ashley,

I know I was a complete jerk to you but I also know that I have literally begged for you forgiveness over and over again. I'm sorry that what I did was wrong. Really wrong. Like totally unacceptable.

I'm sorry for all those things I said and I know I was in the wrong for them I never meant to hurt you I 'pinky promise', you were my best friend and I can't believe what I did to you and I understand that no matter how many times I say sorry it doesn't erase the fact that I went behind your back but Josh was a jerk and you deserved someone better and I tried to make you see that but I hurt you. A lot.  Causing you to run to him anyway and he must have done something right if you lasted so long. But I didn't write this letter to talk about Josh.

I broke your trust and I broke that pinky promise you made us make, but I loved you... Not in that way (can you remember that, how we had to keep telling people that we would never love each other in that way) damn I wish I could turn back time to that moment, but I can't so we are both going to have to move forward now. I'm not saying forget about it because I understand that won't be possible but by the end of this year I won't be here anyway, I hope, and I can't leave without my best friend forgiving me. You clearly don't understand how sorry I am. But..

I'm sorry,
Bradley.

P.S. you meant the world to me, my one and only true friend. I'm sorry. I know what your thinking... Damn you can smell the cheesiness from here but I don't care.