This Love

Him

10th grade

I hated it. Someone random dude was trying for her, in the most demeaning and horrible way possibly known to man. But he isn't a man, he's a boy.

She deserved so much. Much much more than she knew.

Addie and Mia always sat in front of me, while I sat alone. Addie would often come sit next to me if she found the teacher chill. I would love those periods, but wouldn't listen to a goddamn thing coming out the teachers mouth.

Today was no different. We were in biology class, it was right after our second break where I'd gone and met my friends from the other class - Sage, Silas, Mateo and Knox.

Addie sat next to me while Mia sat with some other girl in our class. We kept hitting and kicking each other with our legs and she kept giggling and laughing.

She cannot control her laughter even if she's on her death bed.

Our teacher kept glancing at us again and again, it's a good thing he was chill and not strict like most of the teachers in the school.

It came to a point where our legs where intertwined with each others and we just stayed that way for a moment and listened to class, and there was comfort I felt. Her touch, comfort and safety. That's what I felt.

And we slowly came out of our intertwined posture and just sat silent for the rest of the class.

I know she felt the same thing I felt, explains our silence.

This isn't the first time, we've held hands few times while measuring who's hands are bigger, funny and stupid I know. But there was this warmth I felt while holding her hand and I loved that feeling, it was wholesome.

But whenever we hold hands, even for a second Mia comes in and breaks the touch.

Do I hate her for it? Of course I do.

But it makes me yearn for Addie's touch even more, so yeah I guess I'm also thankful. Only for this.

The class got over and she put her head on the class and slept like a log for the next entire period which was geography class, makes sense why she slept.

Addie hates geography.

I sat unable to sleep, feeling restless and Kate, a girl from my class who I was friends with called me to sit next to her and I got up and left.

Kate and I kept talking and laughing not paying attention to the class. I sat with Kate the entire period and once the bell rang signalling school was over I got up to pack my bag when I realised Addie was still asleep.

She just slept like a baby through out the entire period and didn't wake up even for the bell to go home.

Did she even sleep last night?

Mia comes over and wakes Addie and she wakes up slowly, and I tell them both a bye and leave when Kate and few other friends call me to go home.

I should've turned back, but I didn't.