My Angel

CHAPTER 31

BECKY

With Richie's help, I was able to skip dinner without raising concern or making our parents worry. Using the same excuse of being tired and exhausted, I stayed inside my room and went to take a long bath instead.

I've always detested coldness, yet as soon as the water hit me, I felt instantly at ease with it. After getting myself comfortable, I was finally able to tend to my eyes, which had started to sting due to excessive crying that I just did earlier.

I know that what happened earlier really took Richie by surprise, seeing me cry like that. Now that I think about it, that would be the first time that he has seen me cry that way. Truth be told, I was also surprised that I was able to cry that way; it was also the first time for me. I didn't even realize that I was crying, and once I did, I found myself relying on my older brother, letting go of all the restraint I have and going full on crying within his arms.

"So this is what it's like to be rejected" I uttered, saying the words close to a whisper before finding myself letting out a bitter laugh.

Well, it's not like I could blame anyone for how I feel. I was the one who fell in love on my own; I shouldn't expect Freen to reciprocate, and that was selfish of me. Now that she has made it clear exactly how she sees me as, then I have to be the one to take care of my own feelings, possibly doing so without causing trouble to anyone.

Thinking about this is making me feel a tightening in my chest once more. This is only making me cry one more time, but I stopped myself. I don't want to go crying whenever I get reminded of this heartbreaking moment in my life. I have to be able to handle myself well.

I let myself soak in the water for the next half hour before finally deciding that it's time to get myself ready for bed. Once I got myself dried and dressed, I left my bathroom with the intent to get myself to sleep but was surprised by the sudden presence that I found in my room, more specifically by the girl sitting silently on my bed.

"Hey" Irin called to me using a very gentle voice, giving out the elder sister vibe.

It was a single word, but it has already pricked my heart. I already feel tears starting to pool within my eyes, but my stubbornness did not let me shed those tears.

"Hi" I answered, my voice shaking slightly.

Irin stood up and slowly opened her arms before giving me a signal to approach her and let myself be held within her arms. Feeling vulnerable by her warm gaze, I found myself walking towards her before I could even process my own decision. "It's ok, Bec" she whispered to me. "You don't have to stop yourself from crying" she said as she gave me a comforting pat on my back "At least not when you're with me" she added, and before I knew it, I found myself tightening my grip on her as I let go of my tears for the second time tonight.

I don't know how much time passed by, but she simply let me cry within her embrace, continuously giving me gentle pats on the back as she remained silent the entire time.

"My eyes are definitely going to be bloated tomorrow morning" I commented once the two of us found ourselves in a comfortable position on the bed. "You'll be lucky if it's only going to be your eyes that get bloated" she said, laughing teasingly. "I'm sure your whole face will be bloated by the morning" she added through her laughter, and I couldn't help but feel grateful to have her in my life once again.

"How come you're here anyway?" I couldn't help but ask "I don't remember making a plan to have a sleepover tonight" I told her.

"Your brother called me" she answered, giving me a momentary reaction of shock with the information "He even went to my house just to get me here as fast as possible" It might just be me, but I couldn't help but feel like Irin was proud of my brother's action. "You really are you're family's little princess" she commented, but her words didn't have a single trace of mocking or teasing at all. I was only able to show an appreciative smile in return.

"I did say that but he didn't really tell me anything" she confessed "But with how you've been acting these past few days, I can confidently say that whatever the problem is, it has something to do with P'Freen" I couldn't help but smile with how she was able to connect everything.

Soon after, Irin encouraged me to tell her everything that happened (instead of forcing me to tell her everything, she simply told me to tell her what I'm willing to share to her) and I didn't even bother to hide anything from her and told her every single detail that I could tell her. Just like she's always been, Irin listened intently to every word I said. She did show some reaction every now and then but didn't interrupt me, not even for a second, which I'm truly grateful for.

I took my time to tell her everything I could recall and compared to my first two emotional breakdowns, this time I didn't shed a single tear. I was calm and collected, very different from the me of less than an hour ago.

"So what do you want to do now?" was what she asked the moment that I finished my story.

Although had expected this question from her, it still made me glad that this was her question instead of something with a very obvious answer like "Are you ok?"

I felt myself become hesitant to answer, but I had already decided of what course of action to take so I should be strong enough to stand firm with it and with such determination in mind, I finally gave her my answer.

"I think it's time to move on"

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