Rollercoaster love

Healing.

Mollys POV:

It's been a few weeks. Let's just say I've gone back to my old ways before Leah. Sleeping around, and leaving before they wake up. I hate doing it but that's what happens when I'm hurting.

I keep looking at Leah's instagram. She's posting about football but nothing else.
Tonight I'm performing in Texas. Texas are big lovers of mine. So I can't wait.

I'm half way through performing when I notice someone blonde back stage. I recognise those eyes and that smile.
We did a collaboration a few years ago. I'm glad she's here, one of my best friends.
Molly: "now everyone should know the next song. It was a collaboration with one of my favourite people, so everyone, this is everything has changed."

The crowd go mental when Taylor starts singing.

The song finishes and I take a quick break. Taylor and I go backstage.
Taylor: "how are you?!"
I hug her tightly.
Molly: "I'm okay."
Taylor: "she left didn't she?"
Molly: "yup."
Taylor: "oh mol."
She hugs me again.
Molly: "it's okay, I'm getting there."
Taylor: "don't lie to me."
Molly: "it's hard but I'll be alright."
Taylor: "you will. I'm proud of you."
Molly: "we should have drinks tonight."
Taylor: "sounds good to me. I'll see you after?"
Molly: "you will."
We hug again before I head back out onstage.

I perform a few more songs before signing off the show.

Later that night I'm out with Taylor. Security all around us, there are a few of us out, Taylor has brought her boyfriend, Travis. I love them together, they just scream true love.
Travis: "so how's the tour going mol?"
Molly: "going okay, got 22 more months to go."
Travis: "long time that."
Molly: "yeah I need it right now, travelling all these different countries will be good for me."
Taylor: "you'll be okay, we are in Australia around the same time as well."
Molly: "we are?"
Taylor: "we are."
Molly: "that's made it a lot better already."
Taylor: "good."
Travis: "so where are you going next?"
Molly: "Florida tomorrow, then a week in New York before going home for Christmas."
Taylor: "home?"
Molly: "yeah, I never miss Christmas."
Taylor: "family is important."
Molly: "they are to me."

The night ends and I head back to my hotel room. I sleep okay, the alcohol makes it a little worse.

It's Christmas week. I've just pulled into my parents drive in London after 7 months away from home.
Janet: "my baby."
Will: "we've missed you."
Milo: "MOLLY!"
Molly: "hey buddy."
I hug Milo tightly.
Milo: "I've missed you."
Molly: "I've missed you too little man."
Milo runs back outside to play so I sit in the living room with mum and dad.
Will: "so how are you princess?"
Molly: "glad to be home."
Janet: "I bet you are"
Molly: "I miss her."
Will: "I know you do. She misses you."
Molly: "how do you know?"
Janet: "she came round for Milo's birthday, he wanted her here."
Molly: "and she still came?"
Janet: "she did"
Molly: "why didn't you tell me?"
Will: "we didn't want to upset you."
Molly: "it wouldn't have."

We don't speak about Leah again. I think about her though. How we used to laugh with my family around the dinner table, on family games nights. She's still my favourite person, but she hurt me.

I decide to go for a walk around town, heading to my favourite coffee shop down the road.
I'm stood in line when someone says my name.
Steph: "Molly?"
I turn around.
Steph: "what- why are you back?"
Molly: "it's Christmas Steph, never miss Christmas at home."
Steph: "that's a fair point, how are you? How's the tour going?"
Molly: "going really well, going to south Europe just after new year."
Steph: "wow, you must love travelling."
Molly: "it's okay when I actually get a day off, other than that I see hotel rooms and stadiums. That's about it."
Steph: "it's still pretty cool though."
Molly: "yeah it is. Dare I ask how she is?"
Steph: "erm she's not Leah."
Molly: "what do you mean?"
Steph: "she's changed."
Molly: "that bad?"
Steph: "she's just angry all the time. No smiling or laughing."
Molly: "oh."
Steph: "yeah she's not in a good place, she's cried on my shoulder countless times"
Molly: "she has?"
Steph: "she loves you Molly, she won't ever stop."
Molly: "I won't ever stop either."
Steph: "does she know you're home?"
Molly: "no, I'm staying with my parents."
Steph: "not at yours?"
Molly: "I don't want to go there, in case Leah is there."
Steph: "she's not, she moved out."
Molly: "she did?"
Steph: "she couldn't go back. She moved in with Lia."
Molly: "right. So she sold it?"
Steph: "no, she just doesn't live there."
Molly: "oh"
Steph: "listen, she loves you, she cries most nights, she feels so guilty about what she did. If you get chance, talk to her."
Molly: "okay."
Steph: "I won't tell her your home, we aren't actually allowed to talk about you or play your music anymore."
Molly: "okay, I'll try talk to her."
Steph: "thanks, we need our Leah back."
I smile at her. Steph hugs me before leaving the shop.