Tale Of Chronicle

FALSE HOPE

"Xylene." tawag ni Tita Melanie sa'kin sa terrace. It's our vacation, so I decided to visit and stay in her mansion. Umuwi ako dito after I finished my school stuff, nagsabi naman ako sakaniya one month before kami magbakasyon and she agreed. "Po?" sagot ko. Andito kasi ako ngayon sa terrace, third floor. Sobrang ganda ng tanawin, Tita Melanie's house is surrounded by tall trees. May swimming pool rin sa may bakuran na tanaw mula rito sa itaas. Makakapag-relax talaga ako rito.

"Someone wants to talk to you." she said. I look at her confused, "Sino po?" tanong ko. "Papuntahin ko nalang rito, dito na kayo mag-usap at sabihan ko si manang na ipaghanda kayo ng makakain." she said and left me. Binalik ko ang attention ko sa magandang tanawin, this is perfect. The atmosphere, the view and...the people I interacted with.

I suddenly remember Xander, but he left me ng walang paalam. That's when I first met Gio, his trusted best friend too. He said to me that...before Xander left kinausap raw siya nito about us, he also gave me a letter wrote by Xander. He apologized for leaving without any words through hand written letter, but even it's ten months ago. It's still hurt me, he promise that he won't leave me no matter what but he still did. Bukod sa gusto kong magbakasyon sa mansion ni Tita, I think this is the best way to forget about us and to forget him.

"Hi." someone greeted me from behind. I turned my back and I saw Gio standing, anong ginagawa niya rito? How did he know that I'm here? And...kilala niya ba si Tita Melanie?

"Gio?" pagtataka ko. He just smiled and walked towards me, dun ko lang na-confirm na andito nga talaga siya. "Wait...what are you doing here? How did you know that I'm here?" I asked him confused. "Thalia told me." he simply said. Oh, damn I forgot I told her nga pala na dito ako magbabakasyon. "Oh...okay. What brings you here then?" I asked. "Just...wanna be with you." he said.

Luh. Ano daw?

Ang weird ng lalaking 'to ah, pero mas weird si Mr. Bean. "Bumiyahe ka para makasama lang ako?" tanong ko ulit. "Palatanong ka 'no, hindi ka ba nauubusan ng tanong sa utak mo?" patanong niyang sagot. Galing.

"Hindi na kasi kita nakikita kapag nagha-hangout tayo, kaya tinanong ko si Thalia." sagot niya. Anong connect, Gio? "May sasabihin rin kasi ako." dugtong niya. I look at him...waiting for the next words he says. "Before that, how are you?" he asked. "Ito, maayos naman." I simply answered. "Xy. I already told to Xander and he said 'It's okay'." he said. What? Told what? Saka...already told to Xander...so meaning nakakausap niya siya.

Ang gulo. I haven't talk to Xander for almost ten months and siya...nakakausap niya. Unfair!! "Told what?" I asked confuse. "That...I like you." he said. I was stunned, ano ulit? He likes me? Pano? Bakit? "Paulit nga Gio, gusto mo'ko?" naguguluhan kong tanong.

"Kailan ka kaya magiging hindi palatanong na tao 'no? Kailangan talaga lahat tanungin?" saad niya. "Sorry...I'm such a '?' person." tanging sagot ko. I heard him sighed. He likes me, and...he said it bravely without any hesitation or any hint that I'll reject him.

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It's been 2 months since he confessed to me, umuwi ako sa'min just to talk to him personally. Pumunta ako sa isang building na sinabi ni Thalia, doon daw kasi nakakuha ng condo unit si Gio.

I knocked in front of his door, kinakabahan ako...our last conversation was when he confessed to me in Tita Melanie's mansion. At hindi ko sinasadyang saktan ang damdamin niya ng oras na 'yun. He finally opened the door and gestured me to come-in.

"Gio." I called him, papunta kasi siyang kusina. He turned to face me, nasa kitchen counter siya. "What are you doing here?" he asked coldly.

[Flashback...]

"Gio, I started to like you too...but what about him?" I said. Bakas sa mukha niya ang inis, "Ha? Ang gulo mo naman Xy." sagot niya. "Yeah yeah, why did I confessed to you? Even though I know that...you haven't moved on yet. Anlaki kong tanga." dugtong niya. "Hindi ganun, Gio." saad ko. "Anong hindi ganun, Xylene? You said you like me...but what about him? If you already moved on hindi mo na siya iisipin." sagot niya.

I started to lose my temper, "Gio...hindi ganun kadaling kalimutan si Xander." I raised my voice slightly. "Xander, Xander, Xander...It's always about him Xylene!!" he shouted. After he said it, he left me crying in the terrace.

Gio...no, I know Xander will be happy for us I know that. I'm slowly falling in love with you Gio, but I'm afraid to tell you kasi baka hindi mo'ko paniwalaan. At nangyari nga.

Hays, ano bang ginawa kong kasalanan sa'yo cupido? Bakit laging ganito?

[End of Flashback...]

"I'm here to apologize, Gio." I simply said. "Apologize for always thinking about him?" he sarcastically asked. "For everything, Gio. For also giving you mix signals and false hope." I said.

"I still like you, Xylene. Pero ayokong makasira at manira, Xy." saad niya. I look at him, "What you mean?" I asked. "Tanggap ko na, gusto mo'ko dahil ako yung andito. Give me space, wag muna tayong mag-usap Xylene." he said. "Gio." called him. "Please, Xylene. Give me space." he said coldly. Gio...no, no. I want you to stay please, I don't like you Gio because I love you. Gio, please I don't want to leave you...

"Okay, I'll give you space...sorry if you met me, Gio." I said and...I was about to leave when he said his last word before we separated. "Goodbye, Xylene. Take care of yourself." he said. "Thank you." dugtong niya. I just gave him a weak smile. I left his condo with a heavy heart, gusto kong umiyak...magmakaawang wag niya akong ipagtabuyan pero may mapapala ba ako? Anong magagawa ko kung siya mismo...gustong umalis? Wala.

[ To myself, ]

Bakit ganun? Kapag narerealize mo ng may gusto ka sa tao pero yung taong 'yun...his feelings also slowly fading away. What did I expect? Ine-expect ko ba na once na umamin rin ako...magiging kami? What an expection, girl.

He just want you to know his feelings towards you, but he didn't asked you to reciprocate that feelings. And...what did you do, Xylene? Kabaliktaran yung ginawa mo. Haha.

Cupidoooo!! Anong klaseng daan ba ginawa mo sa'kin??? Kung hindi ako iiwan...ipagtatabuyan naman. Ano ba naman yan? Pagod na akong makipag-laro, pagod na ako, oh. T*ng!na naman.

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Learn how to be alone, because no one will stay forever. Life is just like a book, so many characters you will met. But before the chapter ends, they will leave and left you alone.