I need you more than I need air(Minsung)

11.

Jisungs POV

I've been in love with him since elementary school. Why can't he love me? Why does he look at me like that? Kiss me like that? Just to through my heart around. Why. I just want to know. Minho, why do you through my heart around. 

"What's up whore?" Hyunjin says as he walks through my door. "Figure out how to tell Lixie." "Ugh no, how can I tell someone so fucking perfect like Lee Fucking Felix that you love him and want to date him." 

"You're asking the wrong person dude. Just go tell him." "Ugh, you are nooooooo helpp" He popped the P while walking away.  How the hell would I know look at the person I'm in love with. 

"Mama, I'm going out... Mama?" I say when I walk into the room. She's sitting on her bed sobbing. "Mom what's wrong?" I asked. I sat beside her, and started rubbing her shoulder.  He left Jisung and he's not coming back." She says as she hands me papers. 

Divorce papers. 

"Oh Mom, I'm sorry." "It's okay Jisung dear, just go out and have fun" she sniffles. I giver her a small smile as I walk out. As soon as I close the bedroom door my smile growing as I walk out. 

The jackass is gone. He's finally fucking gone. 

I walk to an abandoned building and go to the roof.  I like sitting up here. It clears my mind. 

The open air. Just me and the open air. 

You know... I could jump. I really could. 

All it takes is just one wrong or right move. 

Then I'd be gone, And I'd never be an issue for anyone. 

Everyone would be happy. Everyone. 

And Minho, I wouldn't love him anymore. He wouldn't miss me. 

He'd be free of me. He'd be free and happy. I start walking closer and closer to the edge. 

Yes everyone would be happy. 

Minho would be happy. 

I wouldn't be missed. I start getting closer and closer to the edge. I  bring my one foot off the edge and then...

I'm pulled back, Into someone's arms.  Holding me tight. Holding onto me for dear life. 

I know that cologne. I know it by heart. It's Minho. "Sungie, what are you doing. Why are you up here" I pull away from the hug he had me in.  "It's my safe space. It allows me to be free up here." 

"Sungie why were on the edge. THE literal EDGE. You could've gotten hurt, or worse" He says. 

"I know" I simply say as I sit back down. "You were going to weren't you?" "Maybe what would you care any?" I say. 

"It'd break me" Lino says. I laugh. Not a happy laugh, a confused, sarcastic fed up with the world laugh. 

"You... YOU'D BREAK? That's the funniest fucking thing I've heard. Really Minho, good job. You should be a comedian." He gets a look on his face a confused one. "Don't you fucking dare give me at look Lee Minho, because you make my life a living hell. One minute you're the nicest fucking human ever the next your making me feel like I'm worth nothing. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of getting treated like shit by the people I love.-" Lino's eyes widen "- Yeah Minho love. I have been in love with you since we were 5. When I had fallen off the swings and you came over to help me up but before you did that you bent down and kissed my knee and said "All better" that's the day I fell in love with you Lee Minho, but your head is so far up your goddamn ass you can't see it. Minho I love you and I always have."  

I then get up and leave, leaving behind Minho. 

I'm so fucking done. 

I can't do this anymore.