Lilies and Lullabies

X. Diary

We decided to watch the sunset on the shore while walking and holding each other's hand. I let the cold water soak my feet as we walk in the fine sand. The wind keeps on blowing my hair and I like that, it makes me breathe freely. I think it was perfectly planned for us because the people here who's strolling around are not as many as I thought they would be. No one actually pays attention to Silas and I even when we splash the water on each other. Para kaming mga bata na nakatikim ng kalayaan. 

Nang dumilim ay naupo na lang kami sa pangpang at nanuod ng bituin sa langit habang nakikinig sa hampas ng alon. There was a silence between us but it never bothers me, especially when I'm with him. There's a part of me that is healing when he's around. We talked about the constellations that we can see above, even the planets… we bicker about our strands before, like the most random thing that we can think about such as which subject is the hardest: mathematics or geography. Then we will laugh at ourselves after realizing how stupid our topic is. Then we'll fall in silence again, and after a long silence we'll talk about life again. 

“Remember when I asked you about your favorite country?” he suddenly asked me when we're walking back to our hotel.

I nodded, “Yeah, what about it?”

“Why do you like the Netherlands?” I was taken aback because I can't say the real reason…

I thought a bit, but then gave him a shrug, “I don't know, Love… it's beautiful and peaceful, I want that.” I answered. Half-baked.

“Do you want to move there?” he asked again.

I shook my head, “I never want to leave, Silas… I just wanna escape.” 

He nodded and he quickly understood what I meant, maybe he did not… but part of my answer was true. 

Nang makabalik kami sa room namin ay agad kaming naligo at naghanda para matulog na, we have separate beds because we want to be more comfortable when we're sleeping. And, it's my mom's request. Okay lang daw ang isang kwarto pero magkahiwalay na kama. Alam ko ring kahit hindi ibilin ni Mama ‘yon ay iyon pa rin ang gagawin ni Silas. My other half knows how to respect my space, he knows how to handle me and my shit. The way he never complains and understood me. That's why I'm also trying to give him back the love and respect that he deserves. 

“Miko, call Tita and Mirae before you sleep.” he said while fixing his bed.

Sinunod ko ang sinabi niya dahil baka naghihintay ng tawag si Mama kahit sinabi niyang sulitin ko ang mga araw na kasama ko si Silas sa bakasyon na ‘to.

When Mama answered her phone, she was already on her bed with Mirae. 

“Hi, ate!” Mirae giggles and waves her hands.

“Are you okay there, Mirae? Did you help Mama?” 

“Yes po, I folded our clothes!” she answered while plastering her big smile, it even grew wider when Silas waved at her.

“Hi, Tita Mama! Hi, bunso!” he greeted my two girlies, I saw Mama smiled at him and it melted me once again.

Mama loves Silas as much as she loves me, and I'm glad Silas experienced it again with my mom. This man has nothing but a good man, and I would give up my life just to protect him. 

“Sabi nang mag-enjoy kayong dalawa riyan at ‘wag kaming alalahanin.” Mama jokingly scolded us that made me pointed at Silas to blame.

He glared at me but I just raised my brow to tease him more. 

“Ayan, Ma, si Silas…” paninisi ko kay Silas.

He chuckled and scratches his brow shyly, “Baka po kasi mag-alala kayo sa anak niyo, ayoko naman po no'n. We're enjoying po, don't worry, Tita!” he handled it lightly.