𝑲𝒐𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒏 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒔𝒕𝒐𝒓𝒚

𝒄𝒐𝒎𝒎𝒊𝒕𝒎𝒆𝒏𝒕 𝒊𝒔𝒔𝒖𝒆𝒔

JUNGKOOK 's POV

The thing I feared the most was attaching myself to anyone and look at me now. I have opened up to a girl whose I haven't got any confidence at all, I don't get it, I got so attached to her... why? Is it because I have always been lonely, by myself? I don't know what to feel, I'm really unsure, I don't want to end up loving her so much, I could end up hurt.
Maybe I feel unsure because deep inside she is just like me; both hurt, both with intrinsic pasts, I guess you weren't really that different from me like I thought the first time I saw you, huh? I'm scared of getting intimate with you. Jesus, I'm ridiculous. I always act so tough, cool and serious but I'm really emotionally vulnerable, I'm still the little kid I was who didn't get the love he deserved from his parents, people don't lie when they say that you don't raise children, you raise adults. That child whose you didn't give the love they needed will create wounds that are gonna open once they are adults.
Still, seeing yn struggling, made me see a reflection of my own past, and this make me want to protect her, this is very strange; because at the same time I can't be consistent with my behavior due to my fear of opening old wounds, which would make me feel weak, incapable... But I'm quite sure I'm weak since the last time, when things got difficult, I turned to drugs and alcohol to numb all the pain. I don't deserve all that love anyways, because if I did, I would have been a different person.

'' hey yn.. It's getting late, you should come back home, there's a lot of creeps out here. how about I give you a ride on my motorcycle? " I offered her.  She smiled, that smile brightened me up" YEAH that would be nice!! " seeing her joyous made me feel kinda sad, I don't know why.

I gave her a ride and told her  " goodnight yn. See you soon"
"jungkook!!" I turned back " thank you!!" she said. I ignored her but as I hopped on my motorcycle I smiled a little bit.
On my way to home I couldn't stop of thinking about Jimin. I was so furious about what he did to YN, she didn't deserve that, how could he treat her like that?? And the audacity to call himself as her best friend? Come on that's fucking ridiculous. Words couldn't describe of how much I was full of anger. I wanna destroy him.

*the next day*

I had class with jimin, I took the chance to talk to him.
"jimin what the fuck do you think you're doing?" I yelled at him.
"Huh what do you want from me? What are you talking about?" I pinned him at the wall and grabbed his shirt "you don't fuck with Jeon Jung-kook. Remember that, you little shit."
he pushed me away and he yelled a me "OH MY FUCKING GOD I'M SICK OF YOU. YOU'RE GETTING ON MY NERVES, HOW IS IT LIKE TO DO NOTHING AND STILL MAKING PEOPLE LIKE YOU SOMEHOW? PRETTY PRIVILEGE RIGHT? BUT THATS THE ONLY SHIT YOU HAVE, YOU PROBABLY DO NOT HAVE A GOOD RELATIONSHIP WITH YOUR PARENTS, DON'T YOU??? OWW YOU POOR THING " that moment my brain stopped thinking, I was paralyzed and  the only things that I was hearing were the voices in my head telling me to beat the shit out of him, how could he have disrespected me in front of everyone, I never did anything to him. Everyone was staring at us and even yn walked in near the crowd to see what was happening right there.
I punched so hard jimin, he fell on the ground and i started to punch him even more, that was getting.. Addicting. He tried to defend himself but he wasn't as strong as me. Yn ran into us "WHAT ARE YOU DOING." she hugged jimin and defended him, they were both staring at me. Everybody there was against me. Once again, I had nobody by my side. I paralyzed yet again, and I knew for the next days that I was gonna be the hot topic of the school. Everybody left expect YN and jimin, "come on jimin let's go to the infirmary, I'm gonna look after you okay?" they got up and before going away yn turned back and told me "how could you."
I was the only one dude left in the hallway and I realized that I have always been the problem for my entire life.
If I were a different person, all of this wouldn't have never happened.

I'm a mess.

I'm a mess.

HEY GUYZZZ second author is here againnn! lmao like I told you all I was going to write the next chapter after author 1. Writing this FF was supposed to be a joke,(the whole acc is a joke) but now I don't think it's a joke anymore 😭 this is taking a lot of time and to be honest I like the way I wrote Jungkook he is pretty relatable not gonna lie. (btw this is cringe on purpose)
How are you? Have you got to study for exams? Please lemme know!
I hope you guyz enjoyed <33

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