Olivia's POV
The minute he asked me that question, it struck me. Do I really have the right to stay beside him? Kasi gustong gusto ko. Gusto ko na ulit maramdaman yung pagmamahal nya.
Nakatingin lang sya sakin ngayon, inaantay kung ano ang magiging sagot ko. I love him, very very much. But I feel scared, sa kung anong mangyayari kung sagutin ko sya. Do I really have to repeat that Fate doesn't want me to be happy. Yet, mas nagingibabaw pa din sakin ang pagmamahal ko. Gusto ko pang iparamdam sa kanya ito. Siguro naman, we can make a new batch of memories na kayang pantayan ang saya nang nakaraan.
Tumango ako bilang sagot and he's shocked. I am happy with my answer, may pangamba man alam ko na masaya ako.
"Can you say it?"
"Bakit pa, kung alam mo na ang sagot ko?"
"I want to hear it, na akin ka na?" he pleaded. I smiled to him and cupped his face to have a peck on his lips before I answer what he wants to hear.
"Yes" I said to him smiling. And he hugged me tightly while whispering his I love you's, which I happily replied to. I missed this; I miss you.
After a couple of minutes of hugging me, he suddenly cupped my face and kissed me tenderly, lovingly. We both smiled after that kissed, as he rests his forehead with mine.
"I love you!"
"Hunnyyy" I shout as I run to him. Kakauwi nya lang kasi galing sa business trip nya from Singapore. He smiled as he waited for me to come to him with wide open arms. "I miss you!" I added habang isinisiksik and ulo sa leeg nya.
"I miss you too" Sabi nya as he hugged me tightly.
Nakatayo kami habang buhat buhat nya ko. I hold both of his ears, nanggigigil. "I miss you so much!"
"I love you" he replied. "Are your things ready?" he asked.
"Yup" I answered. We decided to start living together again pagkabalik nya galing sa business trip. It's nothing new to me, but I still feel giddy. I miss waking up with him by my side again eh. I miss those coffee every morning, but most importantly I miss loving him. And I'm glad na I can now continue to do it.
"Good, now let's go." He said as he put me down, and then he went to my room to get my luggage.
Sa tingin nyo ba masyado akong padalos dalos sa mga desisyon ko? Ang tumira na kasama nya kahit na were still starting our relationship anew. Since simula nung sinagot ko sya 5 months ago, pakiramdam ko wala na lahat ng problema ko. Corny man o cringey pakinggan pero pagkasama ko sya nawawala talaga eh. Mali man, o padalos dalos ako, hindi ko na kaya na hindi sya kasama eh. Pakiramdam ko kulang ako kapag wala sya. At natatakot ako sa kung anong pwedeng mangyari. At isa pa, may lihim pa akong tinatago sa kanya. Hindi ko alam kung anong magiging reaction nya kung sakali man na malaman nya. Ayaw kong isipin, pero during this times na sobrang saya ko, kinakain ako ng anxiety. And it's not good.
"Love, how's your day?" he asked as we drove pauwi ng condo nya. It is still the same condominium but a different unit. Our unit was long put on a lease. All the things we have in that unit were in my apartment. Our pictures were still in mine. Nakatabi, nakatago, nagaantay kung kailan ko pwedeng ilabas. I didn't open it after he went to states to recover. Hindi ko kaya.
"Love, why are you crying again?" that question struck me. Oh gosh, hindi ko napansin na tumutulo na naman pala ang luha ko, dahil sa mga iniisip ko.
"Nothing hunny, I just miss you" I said habang pinupunasan ang luha ko. He intertwined our hand and gives it a kiss.
"I miss you too. But I want to know what happened in your day."
"Well, nothing special happened. Ayy, meron pala."
"Hmm"
"Well naging special yung araw ko kasi nakauwi ka na." I said smiling, kinilig naman din sya sa sinabi ko.
"Hmm" nangigigil nyang kinurot ang pisngi ko.
That was a long drive bago kami nakauwi sa condo nya. But I enjoyed it since we talked about his day, my day, his trip sa Singapore and just about everything we missed from each other.
"The last room in that aisle is our room, so you can put your little bags there. Isusunod ko na lang yung luggage." he stated. "I will just check the fridge if may maluluto ako."
"Okay" as I walk papuntang kwarto, it feels familiar. Same design from our past unit, ang kaibahan lang nito the pictures that used to hang in the wall, in the counter, in the telephone table. Wala na.
Nang makapasok ako, inilibot ko muna ang paningin ko. The walls were painted navy blue, unang tingin palang alam mo na nalalaki ang may ari ng kwarto. And only a few things in the bedside table. A picture when he graduated from college. I remember I was the one who take that picture.
"Love, love. Stand there okay, then look at me" sabi ko sa kanya sabay turo dun sa pwesto na maganda for picture taking ng new graduates.
"Okay Love, I'm looking at you na" he said smiling, yung ngiti na mapapangiti ka din. Yung smile na may kasamang pagtabingi ng ulo. He looks so gwapo and cute at the same time. I click the shutter of the camera to capture that, but that smile is engrave in my heart.
"Give me another smile, please" I said and he gave me another cute smile.
Inilibot ko pa ang paningin ko sa kwarto nya and I saw a camera in another shelf. I got curious so yun muna ang kinalikot ko.
"Hun, what are you doing?" nagulat ako ng may magsalita sa likod ko. He's here na pala, hindi ko namalayan dahil abala ako sa camera.
"Let's take a picture love to commemorate our first day of living together." I said sabay abot sa kanya ng camera.
"I love that." pumunta na ako sa likod nya para yakapin sya at pagdikitin ang mga mukha namin.
"1..2..3.. Smile" he said and click the shutter.
"Tingin" pinakita nya sakin ang picture and it looks great. We look so cute smiling from ear to ear.
"Ipadevelop natin so we can put it our bedside table." aniya.
"Sure, now lets take another one." sabi ko at pumuta ulit sa likod nya. Sya pa rin ang may hawak ng camera.
