Lee's pov
" Dinners ready " my dad says while knocking on the door.
Honestly I don't even know why he bothers. I never eat what he makes, it's not that he's a bad cook, it's just that he has no portion controll and adds on tons of cheese and no vegetables to go with his food. I always cook weigh out and plan my own food. I did the same thing I did when I was a hyper rexi but most of my food was pre packaged and heavily processed.
So I remain in my room and open up YouTube on my tv to play a Sam Sulek video. Honestly I'm just waiting for him to leave so I can cook.
My sister comes into my room as Sam starts his shopping in Fred Meyer.
He provides me with great grocery shopping inspiration when I need it." Are you going to eat?" She asks while beginning to eat her own dinner.
I swear she confuses me so much, the other night she said I ate to much.
Then last night she says I don't eat enough, lost my ass and look sick? Girl if you are going to body shame me please just pic one way. Also I'm still muscular? Abs thigh muscles and biceps but I get t I mean my collar bone and chest muscles might make me look thinner than I am.
" What is it?" We do this most nights she knows regardless of what dinner is there is a 95% chance I'll say no.
" Tater tot casserole." She explains showing me her plate.
" No thanks, I'll make something later."
" Whatever." She responds finally leaving my room. God she's so annoying sometimes. But I bet when I start cooking shell want some.
You know the thing about my dad's is that they rarely cook but when they do we are expected to enjoy it. See Dan works at night and Cent is hardly home during the day if he is home he's certainly not paying attention to me.
I mentioned once that I don't eat till twelve pm but I doubt they tied that to intermittent fasting. They generally don't care what I'm eating and complain my sister and I eat to much. It's annoying.
I watch Sam grab some 96/4 lean ground beef, I make a mental note to add ground beef into next weeks meal prep. I alternate between chicken, beef, and salmon. They are easy and I know how to cook them !
Finally Dan leaves for work at 6:00 but I eat every 2/3 hours. So I start eating the first half hour of 12 pm, then I eat again during the first half hour of three then again the first half hour of five, eight and nine. Nine is the last time I eat of the day. It's what works for me.
So I have to wait another hour and a half to make my meal, it should only take 30 minutes to cook. I'm just having chicken, rice and veggies.
5 ounces of rotisserie chicken
2 ounces of broccoli
1.8 ounces of cherry tomatoes
1.5 ounces of white rice
Pepper
Paprika
Chilli pepper
Simple meal,good protein and good veggies. I don't normally eat with my family, at most I'll eat in the kitchen so they know I'm eating but thats about it.
For me when it comes to avoiding eating with my family I just don't do it.
______________________________________________Rebecca's pov
I'm helping my mom make the two of us dinner, one of my personal favorites butter chicken and rice.
" Babi? How much food will you eat tonight?" She asks before she starts cooking rice.
I tie my hair up into a bun, thinking for a moment. I've been trying to get decrease my portion not making any food substitutions yet. I still eat what I want just less of it.
" A normal amount of chicken but half the rice. " I say.
" Okay love, I support you but I don't want you to get to slim, or loose weight to fast. Take care of yourself." My mom remarks giving me a hug.
" Okay m-- oh wait Jordan is calling me. "
I head over into the living room and answer my lovely partner.
" Hey jor" I say with a smile.
" Hey bex, I just wanted to check on you, I'm going to be heading to bed soon. Wanted to see how your little diet is going and all. "
I hear them groan like they are laying down, This will be a short phone call but I'm glad they called me either way. I miss seeing them everyday and doing things together.
" It's not a diet, it's a calorie defecit. My friends were giving me tips and I went online to figure out what's best for me. Plus I listened to my friend lee's advice. Now I'm eating about 3370 calories a 508 calorie defecit. "
I know it's still a to of food but I with almost 250 pounds, eating even a bit less is still great progress.
I pause to see if he's still awake.
" Okayyy? What ever that means. " He questions.
" Eventually I'll cut down another 200 calories but right now I'm just making food swaps. I copied lee and started drinking almond milk, I replaced my juice with sugar free versions. And all the soda my mom bought is diet soda now. Plus I have a small salad with every meal like Emma. "
" Mhm aspartame, yum" jori jokes.
" Shut up I hate you" I joke back with a laugh. Sure aspartame is bad for you, I mean all the girls in my Ed GC only drink tea they sweeten with honey, water or small little lattes. But it's better than my zero calorie monsters, full sugar sodas, and chocolate milk shakes.
" It takes tons g aspartame to harm you anyway." I quip wile rolling my eyes.
" I haven't started weighing myself or seeing much of a difference, but my soccer drills are slowly getting a bit easier. "
" The running is still exhausting but I feel less out of breath."
" That's good babe, I'm glad your taking of yourself. I hope you keep seeing little signs of progress like that. With luck your pre-diabetic status may be removed. I'm going to head to bed I love you, sleep well, kiss kiss kiss" Jor says in between yawns.
" Night jori. I can only hope so I don't want to die fat and young. " I hang up, I swear sometimes they call me just to fall asleep.
A minute later I get sent a picture of them laying in bed eyes closed on his blue durag, I can see the outline of their waves through the blue fabric. I heart it and head back to the kitchen to help my mom. but she's already done.
I have a small bowl of rice, a larger salad with tomatoes, cucumbers, and zucchini. Lastly a decent sized portion of butter chicken.
" Thanks mom" I say as we sit down and she passes me some Chai.
" Of course babi, tuck in !!"
We begin to eat up talking about her day, work, my day at school, my new friends. Checking on Jor and my feelings.
After about 25 minutes I still feel a bit hungry but know I need to be done. I ate my salad. It was actually pretty good and refreshing after the heavy rice and tea. I finished my rice, my chai and half my chicken, giving the rest to my mom as I head up to my room. If I put it in the fridge or save it for tomorrow I'll get up in the middle of the night, not track it and start a whole binge. Besides my mom is closer to thin than I am and works out, she'll burn it off.