will we made it

Ch 14

JAEHAN POV

I heard him. I heard he said everything that he's  been keeping in his heart. I wake up around evening in the foreign place. I only realized where i am when i look at my hand that attached to the IV. I finally mess everything up, my work, my body, my group comeback. I should paid more attention to my health. What would happen to our comeback. I try to get up but the headache attacked me. I close my eyes for a moment to get rid the dizziness. When the throbbing reduced, i opened my eyes and trying to look around at my new surrounding. I catches a glimpse of hanggyeom on the sofa, sleep soundly.

How long I've been here? What actually happened? The last memory i remembered was yechan came to my studio, invited me for a dinner. I intended to wake hanggyeom up, but from the soft snores he made, i could tell he's in the deep sleep. And my body also didn't have any strength, my head keep throbbing, so i decided to close my eyes and fell asleep again.

I don't know when yechan replaced hanggyeom, what i know i wake up by his voice. The whole time i pretend to be asleep. No matter how weak my current condition was, i still could hear his voice loud and clear. Every words he said full of sincerely. I know he's been keep a lot of pain by himself, hearing his honest confession hurt my heart, i feel really bad for him. He also had a burden he need to bear alone.

I didn't open my eyes nor answered him because my condition at that time, i feel weak all over my body, so i just listening to him. I wanted to cry, for someone with a high pride to be that vulnerable, he must be had enough. He had enough to kept everything inside his mind.

After he gone, i took a moments to think about everything. After a long thought i decided after i gained my healt back, i also gonna confess my feeling. We just gonna hurt each other if we didn't start to find the solution of our problem. He said countless sorry, so i no longer need to hear his apology. And he didn't need my forgiveness, because i already let everything away. If i get better later i would told him my feelings. If he can't ask me then I'm the one who gonna ask him to date me. I hold my love for him because i thought he didn't want to be tied up in relationship, but after hearing his confession guess i no longer need to pretend that what i feel about him is not a love. But the last word he said earlier bothering me.

"For the last time let me kiss you"

He might decided to end our things for my health sake or decided to let me go. Then i just need to tell him he didn't need to. For now i will following every words doctor said so i can recovered fast.

It's been almost an hour since hwichan goes. When he found out i opened my eyes he ran to me to hug my body, and apologized after when he heard me hissed. I asked him not to tell anyone except our managers that i wake up. If the boys found out, they might rushed to the hospital. Having so much brothers, this ward would be like a party room, we definitely got scolded by hospital staffs. He rang the bells under my bed to call the nurse, then sat on the chair beside my bed. Until an hour ago, his phone rang, someone called him, after excused him self he walked out of the room and didn't comeback.

Doctor said all i need is stop thinking about a bad things, and bedrest until the result of a few test they took came out. I will do it, i will do everything as long as i can leaves this ward and going home to the members was. The door opened, hwichan back but something off about his expression.

"Something happen" He shake his head once then back to sit beside me

"Nothing. It just about our comeback. Company decided to postpone it" He said with a smile that didn't reach his eyes

"I'm sorry. It was my fault" I hold his hand with my right hand

"Don't be. Really hyung. You on this state because overwork. If only we can help you so you can share your burden" i smiled at him. And tightened my grip.