Being good

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Wangji was sitting on the stool while looking out of the balcony to his garden. The garden where the innocent bunnies died..no..killed. His hands trembled slightly, he immediately held them together letting out a shaky breath..he didn't knew, if it was because of the trauma or the pills.

He knew if he would keep taking those pills, soon he would be no more. But he doesn't care, he was addicted..he slowly stood up and walked towards the garden, the sun above him, made his whole body go warm..ofcourse the autumn was just on the corner..it was about to be 5 months since he have been staying here.

Wangji walked slowly through the garden, his steps careful. His eyes darted on the floor, like wanting to find something..or to see the already dried up blood of the bunnies on the grass. His eyes pierced on the grass. There were the blood.

He crouched down and plucked out the strand of grass, he examined it carefully, the visions all coming..whirling into his mind. He threw the grass away and stood up. Oh, he hated this feeling..he hated that he hated himself.

"Lan Gonza..his majesty will be here soon"

Wangji turns around and finds Mian who was looking at him, she came forward. He just nodded and sat on large stone fit for sitting on the middle of the garden.

"..We need to prepare you", she utters while kneeling infront of hee gonza..clearly noticing the shaky hands of the other. But she decided to ignore it.

"I am already prepared..just..", he looks at the sun with soft gaze, "..waiting for the sun to go down.."

Mian slowly nodded, she places her hand on top of her gonza's shaky hands. She knew it was the side effect of the pills, she was worried.

"Gonza..today..don't take the pills please..", she requested with plead in her eyes and voice, Mian was afraid more than Wangji itself.

Wangji stared at her..he knew why she was requesting, he glanced at the hands and back at her. He knew he needed to stop now, it was being too much for him. But he can't stop, he forbid to stop.

"..Mian..why don't you go and bring me some lotus roots soup?"

Mian wanted to protest to her gonza that why he cut off the topic just like that. But she knew she has to do what her gonza says, so she nodded reluctantly and stood up. Mian stared at him for a second and went back inside the court. Wangji stared at her back fading into his court. He sighed deeply and glanced at the sun once again.

Jingyi was also listening to everything, when Mian entered, he looked at her and sighed, Mian looked down.

"..Lan Gonza..seems addicted already Mian.."

"..I know..I..I just don't want to believe it Ah-yi..look at what he's doing to himself"

Jingyi nodded softly in understanding, he patted her shoulder in reassurance and went back inside the court's kitchen to prepare the soup. Mian stood there watching him and slowly turned towards the garden. She saw Wangji's back. She was sad..upset. It was no wonder she truly cared for him so much.

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At evening, Wangji was sitting infront of the mirror while combing his hair, Mian and Jingyi already left as the emperor will be here any second. As he was combing, he stared at himself..the beauty which he held, he hated it..so much. Because of this beauty..just this beauty this all happened to him.

He sighed and placed the comb down, he slided off the drawer and took out a pill, he gulped it down with the water, he felt good..just with that.

"Lan Zhan"

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Wangji knew this voice and this name. He hated this name from the buttom of his heart. He looked at the mirror only to find Wei Wuxian behind him. Wuxian leaned down and hugged him from the behind, he rested his chin on top of the beauty's shoulder.

"Hm..you smell quite different today my love", Wuxian asks while tugging the strand of Wangji's hair behind his ear. The other was staring blankly.

"..I bathed in jasmine today"

Wuxian's eyes lit up, he nuzzled his nose on the top of his head, "hm..that's why you smell like jasmine", he smiled and pressed a gentle peck on Wangji's cheek, "Quite lovely.."

Wuxian leaned back and started making Wangji's hair into a bun, the other watched from the mirror, Wuxian pulled out a golden hair pin and carefully kept the bun steady with it. The other stared at the gorgeous hair pin and how beautiful he looked by it. Yiling patriarch leaned down smiling, staring at him from the mirror.

 Yiling patriarch leaned down smiling, staring at him from the mirror

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"As I expected..it looks gorgeous on you"

Wuxian trails his finger on the hairpin while smiling softly.

"It is made of pure gold, which symbolises that now you are married to me"

Wangji's eyes widened hearing that, he stood up. But before he can say anything Wuxian chuckles and pulls the hair pin back letting the bun fall.

"I don't-"

"Shh"

Wuxian smiles and takes out another beautiful hair pin from his pouch, he made Wangji to sit back on the chair infront of the mirror and now made bun with the another hair pin he just took out.

It was gorgeous, it matched Lan Zhan's clothing, sky blue crystal and perfectly designed, so beautiful..like a moon.

"I knew you wouldn't like the golden one as it symbolises the marriage

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"I knew you wouldn't like the golden one as it symbolises the marriage..so I brought this too for you"

Wuxian utters oh so softly and stares at the other on the mirror. Wangji clearly had already thought that Wuxian was going to argue with him again and will be stubborn when it came to marriage. But he didn't thought and didn't ignore the fact that  the great Wei Wuxian was here..being so sweet.

"And this hairpin, reminded me of you..and the moon which you admire. I hope you like this.."

Wuxian smiles softly, Wangji didn't reply. Even though he knew he loved that, he would never try to give in..he will keep rejecting Wuxian's advances as it disgusts him.

Later that night, Wuxian didn't do anything to the other and they just slept while cuddling eachother. Wangji felt the pills going into the drain as he took it just to endure it..but when the other didn't do anything, it had gone useless. He didn't know what was going inside the Yiling Patriarch's mind, nor he wanted to know..he will just go on whatever the other do, but he'll never tell him about his likes and dislikes and always accept what the other gives him. As he already saw the reason, the innocent bunnies dying.

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Slowly the days started skipping like this, everyday Wuxian will visit Wangji in the evening, sometimes when he felt like it, he made love with the other and other times he just cuddled and slept. He has started growing more fond of the other, the would always give him gifts one after the another. But Wangji never spoke a word to him, only answered what was to be answered. But Wuxian never forced him that he had to talk with him.

One day when Wangji was sitting on the stone at the middle of the garden, he suddenly vomitted blood. Mian being right there seeing this came running, Jingyi gasped and then immediately approached Wangji who went unconscious, before his limp body can touch the grass..Mian held him.

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