Still with you - Hyein newjeans

Introduction

 
                                         * Hyein *

        I remember the butterflies swirling around my stomach as I clicked the large blue button, the words reading "submit". Who would have thought I would be in a room with six other females, thirsty with the same ambition as me.

       I breathe in heavily as sweat drips down my forehead. I rest my pointer finger on my temple; frustrated. This is my first time practicing with these girls and the tension is heavy. It's not that we are upset with each other but more with ourselves. "Why do I continue to mess up?" I look up and smile at the others sheepishly.

      The room is dim with mirrors lining the walls, it is a unique practice room. Different shapes bounce around the room and the ceiling glows with LEDS. It is chic in its own way, or maybe that's an excuse for not being able to afford our own practice room. Instead renting an outdated dance room owned by the cutest couple who like to sing Korean folk songs in their free time.

     "How do you expect to debut being that stiff and fat!" Mr. Lee exclaims, sitting up from his lawn chair. His fingers land on me and I look down in embarrassment. With the spotlight on me I begin to doubt my abilities. "It's Hyein right?" He questions before continuing, "you stood out to me the most in the audition videos. I expected more from you" I bow and apologize.

      I close my eyes in hopes I can find the right words to say but instead I stay silent.