A Jinxed Heart (Arcane - GirlxGirl)

To the new me

___Jinx's POV___

I jumped into the river. The cold water swallowed me, dragging me deeper. Panic clawed at my chest. What have I done?

A strange laugh bubbled up from somewhere inside. Silco's voice echoed in my mind. "You're strong, Jinx." His dark eye filled with pride as he taught me to embrace chaos."You don't need anyone else. You have me."

But now he was gone. The thought made me giggle. I did it! I had freed myself from his lies. The thrill of it had lit up my world for a moment. Yet, beneath that exhilaration, a deep sadness settled in my chest. He was gone, and I was alone. Feels like déjà vu, right ?

Mylo's laugh cut through my thoughts and his voice resonated in my head. "YoU' vE MesSEd Up AGaiN, JINX"

"Shut up!" I shouted, splashing water as I choked on the icy current. "Drown me, you stupid river! Let's see what you've got!" I laughed, rage mixing with madness.

What have I done?

***FLASHBACK***

A younger version of me, the fragile Powder, was looking up at my sister. My eyes were shining with admiration as Vi returned with a bag filled with jewels stolen from Piltover. "Look what I got!" Vi exclaimed, a triumphant grin on her face. "We're rich!"

I was beaming, feeling invincible in her presence. "When I grow up, I want to be just like you!" I said, as she hugged me warmly.

But that warmth faded. The memory blurred as shadows crept in. Suddenly, the scene shifted to that night, when everything changed. I could see Vi's face twisting in shock as she realized I was the one who blew up the door. It was me-the explosion, the deaths of Vander, Mylo, and Claggor. I killed them. She knew I was the one who destroyed our family.

Before I could even explain myself, her fist struck my face, pain exploding in my jaw. "You're a jinx! Mylo was right!" she screamed, her voice a mix of anger and heartbreak. She turned away, abandoning me to my fate.

****END OF FLASHBACK*****

I gasped, spitting out water before screaming, "It's all your fault, Vi! I killed Silco to protect you!" I kept shouting, as if she could hear me. "He had been like a father to me, yet I didn't hesitate to pull the trigger!"

But you, Vi? You keep hesitating, torn in two-who should you save? The poor little Powder you abandoned, or the innocent Caitlyn who manipulates you at will?

My consciousness flickered as I grabbed onto a branch in the river, keeping me afloat. I started crying. "I loved you, Vi. How could you betray-" But the branch snapped, I was swept away again. And just like that, the empathy I had felt towards my sister faded. My mind whirled, spinning between anger and sorrow. The betrayal stung. I came back to my senses.

Now it's my turn to abandon you, Vi.

I let myself be carried downstream. I stopped fighting against the waves. My mind was a storm of visions-Vi, Silco, Caitlyn, Mylo, Claggor, Vander... It was too much. I closed my eyes and let myself sink. A sense of emptiness washed over me, a strange feeling of peace. Am I ready to leave it all behind and just die? After all, I had no one left.

Suddenly, I erupted with laughter. Water started engulfing my lungs. Just kidding! I'm not ready to die yet. I have to ensure chaos reigns in Piltover first. I need to make those uptowners pay. Make them feel what it's like to lose the ones you love. I guess that missile was a great first move.

My survival instincts kicked in, and I fought against the rapids. I broke the surface just in time, gasping for breath.

As I looked around, I realized with excitement that I was heading straight for a ten-meter waterfall.

Finally, a bit of fun! I raised my arms like I was on a rollercoaster, laughing as the adrenaline surged. The fear was thrilling, but I loved it.

Right before the fall, I whispered to myself :

Here's to the new me.