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Never say never pt. 2

I laid down in my bed and brought my knees to my chest. I just laid there. Like I just cheated on Tremaine.... And most likely I'm going to be pregnant for Izik's second child. Now would that make Trey unhappy? Very. I was so upset at myself.. But obviously not too upset.. My dumbass basically walked Izikiel into my room. But I'm not going to beat myself up over it because then that won't be good.

The next week or so me and trey have literally been fucking non stop.. But that's good. Knock Izik's sperm out of the running. Anyways, the fucking stopped though. Like another week went by.. And I started to recognize those pregnancy symptoms. Due to me being used to being pregnant.. By the way my pregnancy with Avalen was absolutely horrendous. I told myself she would be the only child. But then again.. All jokes aside.. I didn't even think I would live this long. Trey had to go to some award show next Sunday.. I think it was the VMA's and you guys know how I used to dance for him? I still do it.. But not on tours. I kinda wanna dance on tours again.. But it hasn't been the same since I hurt myself last time.

Trey's stylist was also going to help me pick out a dress for this award show. I thought it was nice. I mean he's nominated for one award and it was a song that he was featured in and I'm proud of him. So very proud. I think I want to do a red dress.. Or blue.. Anything that will look nice. And due to Trey being annoying.. He wants me to get my hair straightened. I like my curls.. They've always been my favorite part about myself.

I was cooking dinner and then I had this horrible urge to throw up. Like I threw up everywhere. All fucking over. Trey ran in the kitchen and I just walked right past him and locked myself in the bathroom. I dug through the cabinet to look for the pregnancy test that I had left over from the last box. "Bae, you straight?" He said knocking. "Mhm!" I said washing up my face. I looked down at the test and then wiped my face with the towel.. When my eyes focused. All I could do was smile.

Well.. I'm pregnant. Let's hope by Trey. I unlocked the door with the test in my hand and gave it to him. I wasn't even two steps away and then he picked me up from behind. "I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you," he said kissing my nose. "Stoppppp it!" I said laughing. "I'm excited about my first child let me live," he said squeezing me. "That's adorable," I said laughing and releasing myself.

I went to clean up my mess and then continued cooking. All this man did was stare at me. "What?" I asked. "You my baby momma," he said smiling. "Jesus Christ," I said laughing. I got out the shower and he was smiling. About to go sleep and he was staring and smiling.

While Trey was sleeping I snuck out of bed and texted Izik in the bathroom.
Me: I'm pregnant.
*10 minutes later*
Izik: that was my intentions
Me: most likely it's not yours. I need info on DNA tests...
Izik: want me to come try again? ;)
Me: no thank you. please stay the fuck away..

After that.. I didn't hear from him. Was it just that easy? But that's the Izik I have to be worried about.. The quiet one.. Cause he's psychotic. I'm loyal to him though. I wouldn't betray him.

What I was going to do soon though.. Was get this paternity test.. Because.. I really don't know. Izik won't be getting in this anymore.. But.. Trey will. I really don't think this child is for Trey. I honestly don't. But I'm going to keep the faith.

I woke up. Daily regiment. Washed my face. Picked out my outfit for the day.. Since it was kinda rainy out, I decided to get my rain boots from the top of my closet.. I was excited because I was about to be fitted for my dress for this awards show. I put on my jeans and after that I was out. Of course I took Avalen with me. She was so excited to go because she loves shopping. Just like mommy.

While I was standing on the the pedestal, I had three ladies crowd around me and they kept asking me what colors did I want. They picked out a metallic silver fabric, a royal blue fabric, some type of lavender shit. I was just looking around and I really couldn't pick. All I saw was Avalen running up and pointing at the blue fabric. She really likes blue so I should've expected that.

I knew exactly what style I wanted too. Nothing too conservative, but something that says "im trey's woman." They told me that most likely I would be picking it up three days . They work nonstop on the best of the bests dresses and there's like 30 workers. I think that's nice. I wish I could own something like that.

When Avalen and I were on our way from the dress shop, I got a call from a blocked number. "Evie, listen to me. I got caught. I need you to just keep your mouth shut. Please," Izik said sounding frantic. "But.. You told me you don't do anything. I believed you! I lied for you!!" I said pissed. Avalen started crying due to all the noise. "Just keep your mouth shut. Deny everything," he said. I agreed and then hung up.

The next day, I was visited by the same men I saw at the store. "Hello Ms. Evea ." One of the men said. Avalen was being watched by my neighbors, and Trey was working out. "Hi." I said slightly opening my door. "We won't be long. We just want to ask you once more about your ex-boyfriend, Izikiel." One of them said sitting. "The same answer I gave you last time," I said cuffing my hands. "Well he says otherwise," the other one said. "What?" I said panicking. "He said he told you recently and that you were together," one said. "I've never sold drugs, I know nothing," I said standing up. "I never said anything about drugs, Ms. Neverson," the tall one said. They got my ass. I basically just confessed. Izik is going to kill my ass.