thirty-four

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"This is so exciting!" Toga says jumping up and down. "Please calm yourself. I told you already, Tamaki doesn't like loud noises." I say, placing a bowl of chips and popcorn on our coffee table. "So treat him how I treat you; got it!" Yeah if you wanna make him feel like shit. There are a few knocks at the door, signaling their here. "Ack! Yes, yes, yes!" I hold up both my hands. "Uh, sorry." I go to open the door to see both Magne and Tamaki at the door with their bags in hands. "Tomura! Hugs?" She leans in before I can even answer. Which I accept. Tamaki waves, smiling awkwardly. "Magne, Tamaki, this is my roommate, Toga." She rolls her eyes. "I'm his best friend and it's so nice to meet you." She seems to be bubbling with excitement, but she's keeping calm like she promised. "It's so nice to finally meet you! Omg, you're soo pretty." Himiko's face goes red at Magne's praise. "Me? Oh, look at you!" I roll my eyes, guiding Tamaki past them and into their living room. "They'll probably be a while," I sigh. Tamaki laughs softly. 

"Do you need anything?" He opens his mouth to say something but instantly shuts it. "No, I'm o-" I cut him off. "Tamaki." He bites his bottom lip. "Do you...have any wine?" I raise a brow. "Oh? I didn't know it was like that." His cheeks have a hint of pink to them. "I-I just wanted to let lo-"

"No need to explain yourself to me. Red or white?" I ask. "White." Learn something new everyday I guess. He follows me into the kitchen where I grab him a bottle and a glass. And to my surprise, he actually tips himself off. "I didn't know you...were like actually a drinker." He giggles. "I'm a social drinker." I did not see that coming. 

"You guys! Come sit so we can start our nails!" I forgot I agreed to that too. We both go to sit in front of the couch. Toga moves the table out of the way so Magne can lay out her supplies. "Who's first?" Himiko shoots her hand up in the air. "Me, me! I wanna go!" Magne laughs hold out her hands. "Lemme see." Toga gets on her knees, placing her hand in Magne's lap. My phone vibrate from one the of the end tables. I lean over to unlock it. Hows girl's night going? I roll my eyes, but I couldn't help but smiling seeing Rumi's message.

"Who's got you cheesing honey? Magne asks, beginning to cut Himiko's nails. "Rumi." The three of us turn to Tamaki. His eyes go wide and he uses his own phone to cover his mouth. "S-sorry! I just-sorry!" he apologizes. "It uh, it-it is Rumi," I admit. "That's nice," Magne mutters. I can tell she wants to add something else but doesn't, probably because of our last conversation regarding her. Although...something has changed since the last time they talked. 

"I actually found out that she's bi."

Ripping the band-aid off. "Really? That...is very nice..." I takes deep breath. "Go ahead," I force out. "When's the first date?" Himiko snorts. "Oh, Tomura doesn't do relationships." I was now realizing they were on two different levels. The last thing I told Himiko about it was I didn't want a partner. But I told Rumi-

"Oh my god, Tomura, do you acutally like-like her?" Himiko gasp. "I guess I've been...thinking about it. I-I don't really know." Why did feelings have to be so hard? Why did feelings exist at all? Sometimes I wished I could just go back to feeling numb. Things were easier. Fucked. But easy. "Why didn't you tell meeee?" Magne tells her to hold still as she unscrews the hot pink nail polish she picked out for herself. She doesn't listen. "I don't think she likes me in that way." Tamaki drinks half of his glass in one go before stating, "Bullshit." Magne whistles. "Okay, okay, Tamaki, speak your mind." He shakes his head. "Nope. That was all. Just, that's bullshit." He says it that time looking directly at me. "You think so?" He nods. "Then what words of wisdom do you have to offer me?" He stares down at his glass for a second. "Magne, I need help."

"Tomura, that sexy piece of specimen has the hots for you. She was not taking no for answer when she came in." Himiko, who has a little more understanding on my love life, chimes in too. "Do you think you're ready for a relationship?" I think back to what I told Rumi. 
I think it would depend on the person.
"I...I think I am." I take a deep breath. "I think I would be open to moving on. Fully." Her eyes widen and water slightly. She smiles sadly. "That's....really fucking wonderful," she whispers. Magne blows on her nails. "All done. Tomura, you're next! And I have the color we picked out for you at the mall." I get into position in front of her. She reaches for my hand but I pull back. "Wait." I know what we're doing on the sixteenth.... "Do you have black?"

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