The Heeseung Complex || Heeseung ||18+

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A/N: 🔞🔞🔞The following chapter contains graphic sexual scenes, cringe, and toxicity. Please be advised. 🔞🔞🔞

Heeseung climbed through my window, because it is too risky with my parents home to bring him through the house. Even as an adult they would freak if I had a boy in my room.

I open the window and he slides into my room, the strangest sense of deja vu washing over me. How many times has he done this before?

"We have to be quiet." I say as I slide my hands inside his shirt. "My parents are home."

"You are jumping right into it?" He laughs as I pull his shirt as far as I can reach. He takes it off, throwing it to the side before taking my face in his hands and leaning down to kiss me.

"No kissing." I say, turning my head away. This needs to be just sex. No matter what he said at the party, I couldn't allow myself to fall back into those feelings for Heeseung Lee. It will only end in pain again and I don't think I will survive it next time.

"You let that guy at the party kiss you."

"He's not you." I say and Heeseung's grip tightened on my hips.

"What is that supposed to mean?"

"I'm not getting sucked back into your world, Heeseung." I reply. "You got rid of my other options tonight, gave me no other choice. That's why you are here."

"You want hate sex? Is that it?" His hands slide beneath my shirt, pulling it up.

"Something like that."

"Anything you want, Princess." He pulls my shirt off, throwing it to the side. "As long as you understand I am not going anywhere. You are mine, whether you want to be right now or not. I've finally got you and I don't intend to let go."

"You're talking too much." I say, unbuttoning his pants. "Either shut up and fuck me or leave."

Heeseung slides out of his pants, smirking at me. He picks me up, his lips going to my throat as I tilt my head back. It's been too long since he's touched me. My body is overly sensitive to everything he does now.

He drops me onto my bed, hard. In a flash my panties and bra are gone and he is over me, biting down on my neck.

"Ah!" I gasp in pain. He licks where he just bit as his hands slide down my body.

"You wanted hate sex right? Hard and fast?" With the last words two fingers slid into me, making me bite my lip to keep from calling out. We need to stay quiet. "So wet. You might talk a big game, but your body doesn't lie. You've missed me."

"No. I haven't had sex since you. Don't mistake sexual need for actual feelings."

"Whatever you say." He smirks, taking his fingers out and bringing them up to his mouth.

He removes himself from me long enough to get the condom from his jeans and put it on. He wastes no time, wrapping my leg around his waist and thrusting into me, hard.

"Fuck." He groans by my ear as I bury my face into his shoulder, trying to keep from making any noise. Heeseung continues hard and fast, like he promised, making it difficult to stay quiet.

"Heeseung." I say, biting into his shoulder.

"You feel amazing." He says, his breathing uneven. "Are you close, baby?"

I nod into his shoulder not trusting myself to speak. He reaches between us, placing his thumb directly on my swollen clit, rubbing. He brings his mouth over mine just in time to muffle my scream as my climax hits me. His tongue in my mouth making it that more intense.

He falls next to me, wrapping his arm around me, pulling me against him. I let him for a moment, still lost in the bliss of the aftershocks of my release. I stiffen when I come back to Earth and realize he is still holding me.

"You can go now."

"Y/n..." He sighs, kissing my temple. "Don't be like that."

"You knew what you were here for. You did it, now leave."

"Tell me what I can do to fix this. Please." He doesn't let me go.

"You can't. What's done is done." Stay strong, Y/n, I tell myself.

"Give me one chance." He says, his fingers making large circles on my bare stomach. "I will be the best boyfriend ever."

"Boyfriend?" I laugh without meaning to. "Heeseung, you don't know how to be a boyfriend."

"I will figure it out."

"Until you get bored."

"Stop saying that. I will never get bored of you." He kisses my cheek. "It isn't possible."

"I can't get over..." I look away, tears in my eyes again. I hate myself for crying in front of him. "I put myself out there. Do you know how it felt to see her there?"

"I know..."

"You didn't even wait a day, Heeseung." I shook my head, sitting up, throwing him off of me.

"Y/n," he wraps an arm around my waist, resting his chin on my shoulder. "There is no excuse for what I did. I can only promise it won't happen again. Give me one chance and I'll be devoted to only you."

I stand up, grabbing my clothing, pulling on my shirt. I need some kind of barrier between my body and his touch.

"Tell me what to do, Y/n. I can't live without you." He gets up, standing in front of me. "This past month has been the worst of my life. Do you want me to beg?" He drops to his knees in front of me. "Here I am. I need you with me. Without you I can't breathe."

"Heeseung..." I say, biting my lip. Could this work? Could he be a good boyfriend? He didn't sleep with Seri, she told me that. I had been out with Sunghoon, we had said our goodbyes. "I will tell you what. I will agree to go out with you, on an actual date."

"Deal."

"I am not finished." I take a step back. "But you have to get Jay's approval."