Indescribable love

Trust

These days, when you talk about trust, it often means something like

"Don't tell her/him I said this and that or keep this and that for yourself"

And often it's also like with kids
"I fall and you catch me"

A game that I used to play when I was a little kid in school.

But actually, with God it's quite the same.
Because I let myself fall into his arms and I trust him that he will catch me.
I know that he catches me.

I can still fall to the ground and I can still get hurt

But there is one thing that's diffrent from back then.

Even if u would fall and get back up again, I wouldn't be mad at my friend.

Back then I'd be really mad at my friend saying, hey why'd you drop me on the floor how could you do that?!

And of course, I could also go up and say that to Jesus if I ask for something and it still happens.

But the thing is that no matter how often I fall down, I'll never get truly hurt because his hand that gets me up and is with me heals me.

The wounds that would stay with me as a kid that fell on the ground would he healed by god instantly.

And it may hurt, but the lord will never let you fall down and not help you back up.
It has a reason that you fell to the ground.

And you may not understand it,
I also don't understand it, very often.
Actually most of the time I never do.

But I know that God knows what he's doing and I know that it has a reason,
And I trust his plans.

Even if I don't understand what God is doing, I am not afraid, because I know that whatever may happen, he's with me and I trust him with everything that I've got.

God has never let me down and he never will.
I know that I never have to go through it alone and I know that no matter how deep I fall, I can always get up with his help.

And I trust in that.

I have prayed for something not to happen, and it still happened.

But I didn't feel so destroyed and lost like the other times because I have him.

At first I was kinda dissapointed and confused why he'd do that and to this day I don't know but it doesn't matter.

I don't know what he's doing but he doesn't.
Idk what God is doing but that's okay because I trust him.

Because even if the most horrible thing happens to me, which did.

I never was alone and I wasn't afraid.
Because inside me there was this kind of love that is stronger than anything ever existing.

God's love.

I can and will say it again,
God's love is the most beautiful thing that I have ever felt..

My biggest nightmare could happen,
And I wouldn't feel afraid.

Because that peace in me can never be teared apart, like the love of God.
Nothing is stronger than him.

And no pain in the world, will ever make me afraid because I know that whatever may happen, God is with me.

The world could burn,
But I wouldn't be afraid,

For I know that God's with me.
And no matter what may happen,
I put all my trust and faith into you.

And that was the best desicion that I have ever done because the peace inside me is something the world won't give you, it's something only God can give you, this peace is worth more than anything in the world.

In the name of the father, the son,
And the holy spirit,

Amen.

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Just put ur trust in God and one day you'll see it was the best thing u ever did.