"Shit, it's already 7!" I yelled to myself, trying to shove my feet into my heels.
Adam had texted me, that he would be at my house at 7, but as always, I was not yet ready.
I decided tonight, to wear a pair of skinny jeans, v neck green shirt, with a faux leather jacket and strap heels. It was casual, but not at the same time and because I didn't get to dress up much, I loved how I felt in it.
A knock at the door and I knew it was him and right on time.
"Wow, a man who actually shows at the time he says." Adams bright smile greeted me as I opened the door. "These are for you." From behind his back, he pulled a bouquet of roses. They weren't my favorite flowers, but it was the thought, that counts.
"They're beautiful! Thank you!" I quickly set them in the kitchen to take care of later and we were on our way.
Adam had an old toyota pickup, obviously had some years on it, but it had charm.
"Sorry about my stead, it's a little rusty." I laughed as I hopped in. "I think it has character." He reciprocated a grin and got in.
Suddenly, my phone vibrated with a text.
'We still not on tonight?' Shit, Julian.
'No, I'm busy tonight.' Was all I responded with.
"Anything important?" Adams words shocked me for a second and I definitely did not want him to see my phone and see the texts I had.
"No, just my brother texting me about something. He's in college and always has questions about classes and such." This wasn't a lie, my brother Matt always has questions, but in this one instance, it wasn't true.
"Anyways, what movie do you wan to see?" I thought, what was even out.
"How about Jupiter Ascending? I heard it's really good." I could hear a small chuckle.
"You want to see it, because Channing Tatum, right?"
I stood silent, he guessed it.
"Well if you don't want to see it-"
"No, no, it's fine. Mila Kunis is hot, so we both will have someone to fantasize over."
'Oh geez.'
The movie was actually pretty good, much better than I thought it would be and the chemistry between the characters were great! And you know what, Channing Tatum was actually very hot. Adam made a few moves, holding hands and such, but not much.
"I actually really like that." Adam said as we walked hand and hand out.
"It was. You have good taste." I smiled and we continued on.
We reached back to my apartment and he walked me to the door, what a gentleman.
"I had a really good time, maybe we can do it again?" I nodded and smiled up at him, he was so tall compared to me.
"Well, goodnight." Even though he said it, we didn't move at all. Staring into his eyes, I wondered if he would make a move ever.
"If you're going to kiss me, just do it." I said, smiling.
He shook his head, laughing a little, before inching closer. Soon our lips touched. I placed my hands on his face, making the kiss deeper. It was a good kiss, I won't deny that.
Julian's POV
It was very strange for Sam to just cancel on me like that and I know that she likes what we do as much as I do.
"Should I even risk going out?" I paced the room, thinking. Going out at all was always a risk, but I decided to go ahead with it.
I hopped in my car and drove to her place and parked across the street. It looked dark inside, from the window I could see, and the light in front of her door was on. I guess I can wait for a while.
For what seems like an hour, I've been sitting here now, when a car pulls up to the apartment complex.
A tall man got out and... Sam.
'What was she doing with him?' I thought to myself. A coworker giving her a ride to somewhere maybe and is now bringing her home?
They stood outside her door for a few minutes and I was still trying to put the picture together.
Suddenly, every thought about it changed as soon as they kissed.
'What? Why would she kiss him, why would she date him?!'
I'm mad, very mad and I'm not even with her.
I wanted to leave, but I wanted to see if he entered, but thankfully, he did not.
I decided to go home and confront her on it later, sleep on what to say to her.
Sams POV
I woke up much earlier, than I usually do, but my phone was going off.
'What the hell..." I thought, grabbing it.
My eyes hurt looking at it, so tired still, but I could make out, that it was from Julian.
"Hello?" My mumbled voice came over through the phone.
"Hey, what happened last night?"
Oh geez, what do I even say.
"My friend was having a last minute party thing and I went for a while, nothing big."
There was silence for a few seconds, even though that seemed like forever.
"You're lying Sam, stop lying."
My breathing stopped, how did he know?
"Last night, I was so worried, that something was wrong, I drove over to your house."
Oh no, oh oh no. Please don't tell me what I think you will.
"I saw you kiss him."
My heart stopped completely, at least I feel like it did and I just wanted the earth to swallow me whole.
"I went on a date last night." I finally said, it was the only thing I could.
"I could gather that."
Suddenly, I remembered something, we aren't together, why should he care?
"You know Julian, we're not together and you never said we were exclusive or such, so you can't say anything against it!"
His sighs were of anger, I could tell.
"Yeah, but I felt like if you are sleeping with someone, it's self explanatory, that you don't sleep with anyone else."
"I never slept with Adam."
He laughed. "Adam, what a great name."
I started to think, why did I go on a date with Adam in the first place? Because I wanted to try at something, that I really want, an actual relationship. With Julian, I'm not having that, I can't.
"I'm not ashamed. I'm dating Adam, because I want a relationship, I want to see if I can make something work. What we are doing Julian, it's not a relationship, it's a situation."
Silence, what could he say.
"I like being with you Sam." It's all he said.
"I do, too, but I only see you at nights Julian. All we do is have sex when we see each other. You expect me to just not see anyone else and live on that?
"I just, I thought that-"
"Thought what? That somehow this 'situation' we have was something more? Because, that's not what it feels like Julian. We agreed to have a friends with benefits situation, but really, how much friends are we?" I was tired of this argument, but I knew, and he did too, that this needed to be settled.
"You are my friend Sam."
I wanted to hang up, I did, but I stayed on.
"Maybe, but Julian, you just don't seem to be mine."
What was I doing? Why was I doing this?
"I don't want to lose this Sam, lose us."
I laughed ironically.
"Julian, there is no us, there never was an us. You know, I don't know if we should do this anymore."
He started to laugh and I could hear him pacing the floor.
"A few days ago, you were happier than ever with our situation. Why now?"
Adam, that's why.
"Because I didn't think I would have a chance at an actual relationship, but now I do and I don't want to ruin a chance at it."
I cared for Julian, I did, but he would never be able to be in a relationship, that required more. I wanted more and if I couldn't get it, I had to look somewhere else.
"I'm sorry Julian, but I have to go. Good luck with everything."
I hung the phone up before he could reply, but my phone soon binged with a text.
'Samantha, you are my friend, I don't care what you say. After all the late night conversations with you, everything we shared, you can't say were not.' I didn't acknowledge it.
I set my phone back down and tried to fall back asleep.
I had feelings for Julian, I'll never deny that, but Adam confesses his feelings and that's what I need.
