"She looks so happy"
"You say it like you're not.. what's wrong?"Well-
I'm still seven - watching mum wanna die
I'm still that child - who can't sleep at night
I'm still her - laying in bed
Praying to God that soon I'll be dead
I'm still that girl - waiting for dad to hit me
I'm still that girl - asking them not to worry
When they really should've... I was 30 before 13
And I'm still her - waiting at the altar
Like the fool I've always been
For someone who "once" made me feel seen
Nothing's changed, I've just aged
I'm still her - getting more deranged
And that happy smile I try so hard to maintain
Is screaming telling me for fucks sake that I'm not sane
I'm still that loner who gets used
Who's lips are kissed before getting bruised
I'm still that madman pacing around in anxiety
I'm still that girl - you think is happy
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Way of my soul || Poetry
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