Finding my match

Five

Josh's P.O.V

She looks at her moms car with a smile, she looks towards me and I try to make my move. I don't know why or when i started to lean in, but my body was like a puppet, moving without a will. i got closer and closer, almost nose to nose, but she looked away. 

"Josh?" she was very confused, i mean, anyone would be. It's our first date and here i am going to second base. i back away and heave a sigh.

"I'm sorry. I don't know what I was thinking." she looked so shocked, but her face softened as she began to blush. i hoped out of the car and ran to her door to open it. She got out of the car with her head low, thanking me, and walking to the front door. You're such an idiot. why? I began to head to the door when I noticed that Trisha was stopped in the door way. 

"Are you ok?" i make my way over to her placing my hand on her shoulder. 

"Yea, I'm just confused. We can talk about it later tonight." i nodded and walked inside. her mom was passed out on the couch with a beer bottle in her hand. Poor Trisha, i wish i could take all her pain away. You can. No, I need to stop thinking like this. I walk slowly beside Trisha on our way up the creaky steps. We reach my room and, to my surprise, She walks in with me. 

Trisha's P.O.V

He sits casually on his bed and i sit next to him. I have so many questions. Why did he try to kiss me? Why was he being so....nice? Why is he trying so hard? As if reading mind, Josh looked up at me. 

"I'm really sorry about tonight. It was going good and then i screwed it up."

"You didn't screw it up, you just caught me by surprise."

"I...." he pauses and looks away from me. 

"I wanted to let you know that i had a good time, i just was really confused at what exactly we were." he looked up at me confused.

"What do you want us to be?"

"Oh.." I begin to flush with redness. I want us to be a couple, Josh. I wanted to say it so badly, but i didn't. "I don't know. You brought up the whole "not following the rules of the matches" and I don't know if i could be yours."

"But do you want to be?" He's caught me off guard. My face has turned bright red and i can tell. 

"Yes, but...."

"Yes, but? But what?"

"How do I know for sure that you mean it?" I don't know if I regret asking or am ok with it. He leaned close and placed a kiss on my lips. 

"I really care about you, Trisha." What is happening? I cant handle this. I get up off the bed and practically sprint to my room. So many thoughts are going through my head when i hear a knock on the door. Its soft, but reverberates off my walls. I open the door that is separating us and i collide with josh's face. I didn't mean to kiss him so hard, but i needed to. He backs me up into the room and closes the door. 

"Trisha, we need to figure this out."

"So let's figure this out." He grabs my hand, intertwining his fingers with mine making my heart jump. I walk us over to my bed and sit down. He sits next to me. 

I sigh, "If we are going to be dating, from now on, we have one-hundred percent honesty."

"Understood." He nods and smiles making me smile.

"Ok, now I'm going to tell you my whole story. Be prepared to watch me break down, Ok?"

"Don't worry, Trisha, I will be able to handle this and I'll take care of you." His words make me blush and i let out a final sigh as i spill my story. I started with my dad. He was in the army, so he was strong and hefty. Not to mention, totally in love with my mother.  He asked for my mothers hand, but the night before the wedding he heard the news. My mom already had me, but i was an infant and i never got to officially meet him. The doctors noticed something odd in his brain scans and did some more investigating on him, but sadly they found cancer, not only in his brain, but in his heart. They told my mother that he would only have a couple of months left and that they wished that they had caught it sooner. By this time of explaining things to josh, I was bawling. They got married and moved in together for their remaining months together. My father died in the most weakest state he could be in and my mother had to watch as her soul mate, yes they were matched, die in her arms as he slowly let the cancer take him away. My mom took all evidence of him away. It's too hard for her and I understand, but I wish i could see him again. The only thing I have of his is a ring. My mom tells me that i look like him, but i have never seen him. 

Josh looks at me with sad eyes," I'm sorry."

"Don't be, I have you now. I don't have to pretend to be strong anymore." He smiles, but it has sadness behind it. I lay back letting the tears roll off my cheeks. Josh takes his place beside me and wraps his arms around me. 

"You aren't alone anymore. I'm here and i will be for as long as possible."

"Thank you."

"I care, Trisha."

"I know." We laid there in silence as my eyes began to get heavy. Our breathing began to match as i drifted off to sleep. I opened my eyes, but i was floating curled up in a ball wrapped in something covered in feathers. I was naked. 

"What is going on?" There was no sounds from anywhere. "Where am I?" A flash of light blinded me as i awake from my dream. It's already day time? Nope, just josh turning on my lamp. 

"Good morning, Beautiful." I smile and kiss him softly before rolling out of bed and into the bathroom where i shower and get ready for the long day ahead of me. 

I yell from the bathroom,"Are you going to be at school today?" 

"Yea, I'll be going with my princess." I smile at his words and continue to get ready. When I finally finished with everything, I headed down stairs to begin breakfast. Hmm, what will Josh want? I'll make him bacon and eggs. As I start the meal, I realize that Josh hadn't come downstairs yet.

"Hey Josh?" There was no answer, so I left the burner to heat up. I walked up the first few steps and  I didn't hear a thing. I continue up the steps and make it to his door.  As I open it, I see a figure dart across the room. I open the door completely and see Josh asleep on his bed. Who was the shadow then? 

"Josh, wake up honey."

He grunts and with a raspy voice says,"I was up, but then my bed called to me." He smiles and it makes me laugh. 

"Ok, well now breakfast is calling you, so get up." 

"Fiiiiiine." He shuffles out of his bed and walks with me to the kitchen.

"Would you like to help me with the meal?"

"Like, help cook it and stuff?"

"Yea?"

"Oh, no thanks. I'll let you do the cooking." He laughs and I join. 

"Suit yourself." I shrug and continue to make our food. After about 30 minutes, I make a plate for the both of us and set them on the table. 

"Beakfast is ready, Josh. Come and eat before the bus gets here."

"Coming. Hey, Trisha?"

"Yes, Josh?"

"You should get a kiss the cook outfit." He smirks at me. 

"Or you could just kiss the cook." I smile at him as he nods n agreement. We eat together, but since I cooked he cleans. He groans as he's cleaning, but I ignore it. I grab my things for school and set them at the door. 

"I bet the teachers missed you."

"Yea right."

"Oh?"

"I'm the biggest trouble maker there is."

"Yea whatever. There's no way someone as sweet as you could cause that much trouble."

"Are you underestimating me?"

"Just a bit." As the time to go arrives, we head out, hand in hand, together to the bus. Peter glares at Josh as we sat down. Why does Peter get so mad when Josh is around? I'll have to ask him whats up with that later. The time to school passes slowly, but I don't mind because I have Josh to keep me company. We finally arrive at school when i notice something standing on the roof of the school. I nudge Josh and point at the girl shaped figure looking as if its......

"No!" I scream as I look away. She jumped off the roof. Everyone in the bus gasped. Everything went blurry as tears filled my eyes. I text bekah in a frantic panic.

*Hey, did you see what just happened.*

moments later she replied.

*:'( Yea, it was Amanda.*

No, it cant be. I look at Josh with horror. He hugs me tightly and whispers, "Everything is going to be ok."

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