"SURPRISEE""happy birthday" the lights go on and the first person i see is....i cant believe my eyes....its zeeniya..my childhood bestfriend..i didnt realize how much i had missed her..we were always together but now she shifted with her parents to ontario,canada and shes here...then i see mom,dad,aahil,tooba and wow minhal reached before me all dressed up....whole day i was so caught up in my thoughts that i did'nt realize it was my birthday..i'm pathetic i think to myself...the room is decorated beautifully and i have a cake there for my 19th birthday..."thankyou soooo much everyone i love you all"....i cut the cake and introduce my main zeeeniya to minhal and tooba....i pretty much love the effort everyone did for me and i feel so special right now...after a tiring night i get into my pjs and superman t shirt...i have something for baggy tshirts i love them...zeeniya is sleeping over ofcource..i love her for flying from canada just for me...well she missed london..."so how's university..any hot guys?" "many...but not my type" "there must be one" my thoughts again shift to alyaan and i get a feeling of i dont know something and butterflies in my stomach for a second "none" i say.."liar i can see it in your face miss.enaya..""you..like..someone" she proclaims breaking each word..."well sorta" "omgg you girl...didnt tell me...i wantt to know everything a to z" "okay fine" i say rolling my eyes at her kiddish approach.."well for the start he is really beautiful like really handsome....he has those irresistable gray eyes...a muscular body...good dressing which is like the cherry on the top..the cutest smile on earth..and the fact i get a feeling that he may like me back too" "oh mu gosh enaya you seriously like him....who's he?'' i smile and open my mouth "umm minhal's brother actually"i say a bit shyly...."oh my god...does she know".."i think she has a hint but i didnt tell her ofcource" ''oh my god" "okay zeeniya stop with the "ohmygods" for once" "hehe sorry but this is news and an interesting news""so why dont you talk to him" "no way no matter what he is a na mehram to me and if he really likes me he'll propose me for marriage" "what if he does'nt" "lets be positive but hazrat ali(r.a) said '' if you love someone ask for him in your prayers and if you dont get him so understand someone else asked for you in their prayers" "hmmm" "sleep now im really tired" "no no no first describe him to me so i can imagine his appearance.." "where do you live exactly?? narnia? 86 b.c? dude we are in 2015 log in to your facebook account lets stalk him" i put alyaan ahmed in the search engine and he is the first one who comes due to minhal and aahil being the mutual friends...." ''oh my god he's so freakin hot..the bastard must have a girlfriend" "god knows" .........like that we chit chat about useless stuff and go to sleep....
the semester is about to come to an end and i dont know what has happened to me...ive become weak..i can see the huge dark circles under my eyes...its because of the late night studies ive been doing....minhal got engaged to this really good looking guy she is family friend's with who lives in abu dhabi she's going to get married after the completion of her studies and will shift to abu dhabi with him....whereas im still here with my crush on alyaan...ive chosen a spot to park my car next to his so that i can see him everyday..i know im crazy.....minhal said her mom was doing something important for alyaan dont know what that is....
i hurridely park my car i was slightly late than usual..i run in the campus and run towards the exam hall where i see both tooba and minhal sitting in their chairs with a bored expression..i go find my seat according to my roll.no......after the exam ends i go out of the classroom and wait for tooba and minhal....they both come out after five minutes that felt like forever...."lets go eat outside" said tooba....."ummm im not sure we have an exam tomorrow" i say unsurely..."well we have been studying alot these days we need a break to relax" "well the statement seems legit to me" said minhal "okay fine".....with that we go to charlie's to munch on some subs...."guys i have news for you" said tooba ....."ahan go on" said minhal with the her mouthfull ...."okayy...sooo ummm imgettingmarrried'' she is soo nervous i swear that we didnt get a word she said "wait what tell us again this time slower" i say "im getting married'' "oh my god what im soooo happy congratulations"......tooba is a really nice girl..im glad she is getting married...she always loved kids and she always told us she cant wait for the day she'll have a cute baby and a happy famly..im really really happy for her..words cant express the feeling of bliss im going through right now "with who tooba....batman?" said minhal raising an eyebrow with a smirk "haha better than him...you both know him" "really?" i say "yes and i think im already in lovve with him...i used to see him around and dont tell anyone secretely wished to marry him one day he is really char...." "oh shutup and already tell us who he is'' interrupts minhal "okay fine" " he is...." i cant stop my smile and eagerness to know who it is she has created a lot of suspense already and i can feel it in the air..."your brother" "my who?" minhal throws the drink she had in her mouth and it spills on the ground beside our table "wait no way alyaaan?" minhal says....."yes alyaaan" she says with a shy smile.....i say nothing ...my smile of anticipation turning into a frown....."oh congratulations" i say with a heart which is melancholy right now......i see the excitement in the eyes of tooba i want to be happy for her but i dont know why im not happy....tears start gathering in my eyes when i just get up from there and turning my back towards them i say "im sorry guys i gotta go will catch up with you tomorrow" i go and start my car....i start crying....crying hard i need some time alone to be by myself it is too much to digest......i always thought of alyaan...always...i thought he liked me..it seems he never did...those smirks...that flirting was all a lie...and i was so dumb to be flattered by his meaningless compliments....whenever i thought of a future it was always with alyaan...alyaan was everything i dreamed of....that one day he'll be mine...but i guess that luck was'nt by my side..maybe i deserve this..i obviously dont deserve a guy like alyaan he's handsome,he has a personality found rarely in guys and me? im just worthless.....im sooo disheartened....but i have to be strong maybe Allah had written my life without him...maybe he was not the right prince charming...maybe my prince charming is still out there not ready to be found...i am dismayed by the fact he is getting married to tooba...my friend....if it was another girl it was fine but seeing alyaan with tooba...oh god no..i dont think i can do this..i want to be happy for tooba but a 3/4th part of me wont let me..i call zeeniya immediately she picks up " hello mrs.alyaan how you doin" that makes me cry more im sobbing and she realizes " enaya whats wrong...." words have failed me "zeeniya...." "tooba is getting married" " so why are you crying due to that oh enaya" "shes getting married to dammit alyaan" i say between sobbs "oh noo...its okay enaya..just calm down and dont cry....may Allah keep him happy in his life..be strong my girl..youll definetely get someone better" "yeah" i say and hangup ...as soon as i hangup i get a text message..i open and its from minhal "are you okay?" i know she knew about me liking alyaan she witnessed it i dont know if i am okay....so i just let it be and not reply...
