Escape To Paradise | l.h.

{Luke}

   When I wake up, the curtains are open and the morning sun hits my face making me squint my eyes. Confusion sweeps through me until I realize where I'm at. Wylie's apartment. I look around the room fumbling with the bed sheets trying to find her but I come up empty handed. I hope she didn't think last night was a mistake.
   It was the first time in a long time I could actually have her like that. To touch her edges and curves. It was like a breathe of fresh air. I pull on boxers and stumble out of her room. The smell of bacon hits my nose and a wide silly smile carves upon my face.
"Morning." I greet her admiring her bare legs and messy hair.
"Good morning." She smiles setting a plate of eggs and bacon in front of me. She reaches in the fridge for ketchup and sets it in front of me. "I didn't forget." She blushes.
"Surprised you still remembered." I open the ketchup and squirt some on my eggs.
"How I could I forget your weird habits." She giggles sitting down across from me at the table.
"Thank you for breakfast." I mumble through a mouthful of egg.
"No problem." She pushes her bangs out of her eyes and rests her chin in her hand. "Are we gonna talk about last night?" She says softly biting her bottom lip and looking down at the table.
"If you want." I tell her.
"Well, I want to apologize for just forcing myself on you. We're not even together and I just..." I cut her off with a wave of a hand.
"Stop. You didn't force me to do anything Wylie. If I didn't want it to happen, it wouldn't have." I say honestly.
"Can I be honest with you?" She questions.
"Of course." I nod a little taking a strip of bacon and biting into it.
"I just..." She pauses. "I don't know if this is what I want anymore. I mean, I love you Luke but..." She pauses again her eyes filling with tears. "But I don't know if I can do this. You have the band and your always so busy. I'm in college and I don't know how it can work anymore." She wipes her eyes on the back of her hand.
I push my plate away from me. "When I came and seen you at the hospital I thought I was going to lose you. I mean really lose you. I was so scared Wy. When you pulled through I realized that life is too short to just throw things away. To not cherish what makes you the happiest." I pause letting her take in my words. "Of course it's going to e hard. It's going to be hell at times but just thinking of you gives me the strength to get through the day. Just knowing that I have you makes me feel incredibly blessed." I stand up and walk towards her. "It's worth it to me. You're worth it. I'm willing to do whatever I can to be with you even if it costs so much." I crouch down and rest my hands on her soft warm thighs. "We can make it work if you're willing to try with me."
   Tears stream down her face. I cup her face and brush the tears away with my thumbs. She gras onto my wrists with her delicate hands, her fingers squeezing. She closes her eyes slowly.
"Say something." I whisper inching my face closer to hers.
Her eyes open exposing glossy emeralds. "I-I..." She stutters and takes a deep breathe. "I met someone else."
   I release her falling to my ass sharing off into space. Her words ignite a fire into me. Was all she said last night a lie? Did she even still love me? I didn't know and I felt like I was a glass mirror and she had dropped me from heights unimaginable and watched all of my shards crash to the hard ground. My head begins to spin and I have to get out of here.
   I almost trip over the kitchen chair as I get up and race to her room. I dress quickly into last nights outfit and grab my keys. Tears well up in my eyes and I felt weak. As I reach for the door handle she hugs me tightly but I don't hug her back.
"This was pointless." I mumble as she steps back.
"What?"
"It was pointless trying to get you back. I can't win anymore. I shouldn't have even tried." I spit loudly opening the front door and stalking out.
   Before I revers out f the parking lot, I look up at her apartment and try to erase last nights memories.

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First update I sooo long and I'm still so sorry for being so absent. Anyway, this chapter is shit and I'm sorry it's so bad. But anyway thank you to all of you who have taken the time to read any of this story. It's pretty slow right now but I'll try to get it going again.

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