Kidnapped By Sleeping With Sirens (SWS)

8 - Depression Returns

~ Kellins POV ~

I take Justin into the bunk area and look at him intently. "Did she say anything?"
Justin raises an eyebrow "What do you mean?"
"What did you talk to her about?" I ask curiously.
He shrugs "Just...stuff. Listen dude, you can't just ask me for information on her, if you want to know things you should ask her, I'm being a decent guy and keeping what she told me between us, just like she did for you two. What do you think she's say if she found out you were asking for information?"
I sigh and nod "You're right. Sorry man. I just...she doesn't seem to notice me anymore..."
Justin laughs and shakes his head "Dude, just because she's spending time with the rest of us doesn't mean she likes you any less."
I look down at the floor "Yeah, I know, I just...I really like her man."
Justin nods and sighs "I know, I could tell."
I look up at him "Do you think she could tell?"
He shakes his head "No, from what she told me she hasn't felt much love throughout her life, so she probably won't realize unless it's super obvious."
I nod "Oh ok, thanks for talking sense into me man."
"No problem dude." Justin says, smiling at me. We leave the bunk area, returning to the main area of the bus.

~ Jennys POV ~

I wonder what Kellin was talking with Justin about?
"Do you guys have a spare bunk? I'm super tired." I ask.
Gabe smiles "You can take mine, I actually prefer the couch, so you can have it all tour if you want."
I smile widely at him "Thanks man! Ok guys, I'm gonna get some beauty sleep now, its been a long day!" I wink and give them small solutes before strolling to the back of the bus.
"MY BUNK IS IN THE MIDDLE ON THE LEFT!!!" Gabe shouts.
I laugh slightly "THANKS NOOB!!!" And I can hear his laughter as I flop into his bunk. I'm not actually tired, I just needed to be alone. I pull the curtain of the bunk across, so that no-one can see me. I start crying softly into the pillow. Talking to Justin about my depression...its brought it back, that's why I needed to be alone, I didn't want to worry the guys. I curl into a ball and cry harder, desperate to pull myself back together again, but its not working. The drama from law school...oh fuck, no! I don't want to think about that! Too late. I hear a sigh from the door and a thump, someone just fell into their bunk. I'm guessing it's Kellin, as he's in the bunk opposite mine and that's where the sounds were coming from. A piece of paper suddenly flies through the small gal of my bunk curtain. I raise an eyebrow and open it. There's a row of numbers and a small message beneath it.

" Can we talk? Here's my number. This is Kellin, by the way. "

I add his number onto my phone and text him.

Me: You wanted to talk?

Kellin: Yeah, I was just wondering a couple things...

Me: Like what?

Kellin: Y'know you and Justin were out and stuff? I'm guessing you told him things. I was just wondering....if I asked, would you tell me the same things?

Me: You think I prefer Justin over you don't you?

Kellin: ...

Me: Kellin! The whole reason I got kidnapped was you! You are the only reason I'm here! I'm not supposed to have favorites, but if I did, you would obviously be number one! If you want to know more about me, all you have to do is ask, that's all Justin did.

Kellin: Fuck yeah! I feel special now! Ok, can you tell me more about yourself then?

Me: Sure, why do you wanna know?

Kellin: Anything you're willing to tell me.

Me: Oh, ok then. So I've been through depression more than once. I've been bullied throughout my life. I'm over a month clean from cutting. I'm still going through depression right now actually, but its tempremental, when I'm having fun with friends or whatever I'm happy as can be, but when I'm alone or my depression has been brought up...it comes back. Generally when it comes back I lock myself away, so I can't worry or upset anyone else.

Kellin: Holy shit Jenny! I'm so sorry, I had no idea! Well done on being a month clean, Im so proud of you! Wait...did Justin bring up your depression!?! Is that why you hid away in here!?!

Me: ...

Kellin: Oh my god! He did! Jenny, are you ok?

Me: ...

Kellin: Do you wanna get away from this for a little while? I could walk around with you if you want? The guys can all stay here. Would that help?

Me: Yeah, I guess, but how do I get past the guys when I'm crying my fucking eyes out?

Kellin: YOU'RE CRYING!?!?!?!

Me: ...

All I hear is the sound of a bunk curtain being pulled open and someone standing up, then Kellin has opened my bunk curtain and is looking in at me. We lock gazes for a few seconds, before I break. My face crumbles and I start sobbing. Kellin gasps and pulls me into a standing position, holding me close to him so I can cry into his shirt.