(Not so) Daily Diary

September 2, 2015 4:50 pm

*Idk what time this will be up but I'm starting it at 4:50. *

I'm sitting on the side of the road, thinking "when did it all go wrong?". I have no friends and I'm lost without anyone caring where I am. I have a phone, no service. I'll have to message my dad on Facebook later. Idk. Spec-ops was good. Terrible, but good. I about died but for two reasons:
(1) at the beginning one of the flight commanders (upperclassmen) asked someone I know to prom in front of the whole class. The Ranger gave the two flight commanders orders called the girl to the front and the commanders got on their knees and saluted her and the one guy asked her to prom. It was so sweet.
(2) I don't run for shit. We had to be in formation and we have to run everywhere we go. I didn't have water either. We first ran to the field behind the school, got into a line, did 10 push ups, 15 sets of 3 jumping jacks then we had to run the field, after all of that I was dying and only got one sip of water. Then we had to stand in the sun to get our lesson. After the lesson we had to get in formation again and run all the way back to class. I almost fainted so many times and I asked Short Kid (for those who know who I'm talking about) for his water and ugh thank you Short Kid. I didn't care if you just drank from it, I chugged that bitch. I didn't waterfall or anything. I was legit about to die.

After Spec-ops I didn't have a ride home. I thought I did, but I guess not. So I decided to walk to what I thought was my friends house. Which was easily a mile from the school. And I did it in less than an hour, thank you very much. It was like 30 minutes. I wanted to die after, I found out it wasn't my friends neighborhood and I got so pissed. Some people drove past me and stopped. They asked if I were okay and I said I was lost and asked if I could use their phone. I called my mom and waited on the side of the road until 5. It's 5:07 right now. Just idk. I feel stupid. I've been listening to music the whole time and I'm so tired. I wanna go to sleep now. I'm all sweaty and my makeup is messed up and my hair is fucked up. I probably stink from sweating so much. Thank god I didn't do PT. PT is worse than Spec-ops. Next week will be easier tho. It will be the week we mainly do lessons and not as much PT. My legs hurt so bad and my head is killing me. I guess it's nap time, now that I'm home. Idk. Nap time cuz I can't watch YouTube because they yell a lot and my head hurts like hell. Nap time because I don't want to think and hurt myself. My head or body. So yeah. Idk. Maybe I'll just stay up and text. Idc anymore.