Be good for me

That its fine

Michael please don't hate me I can't stand not having you around me.

Day after retched day I mope around about Michael even though I'm the one who walked out I still miss him like crazy.

"Tessa up and out of bed you've been like this the whole long week so grow and pair and get out of this house" my mother tripped the blankets off me and pushed me out of bed

"No I just want to stay here" I could feel my heart breaking and the sound of Michael

"No get out of bed and out of this house by 3:00!" She walked out that was in 30 minutes are you crazy?

"Fine" I shuffled to the bathroom and got dressed in something decent.

I was scared the see Michael god what this boy does to me!

I wasn't ready to see him moved on. He has an affect on me that I can't shrug off. FUCK!

"Alright bye" I walked out the door with my mom yelling "have fun"

I'm glad my mom is ok with coping my dads death. In all honestly she had been dealing with his shit for the past 3 months.

My dad went on a lot of business trips and some of them weren't even trips to another country. By saying that I mean he had many affairs, but the crawling back for forgiveness. My dad didn't have a connection with me or my sister as we grew up he was just our father who left a lot.

I've forgotten his face? Is that bad?
He's forgotten his family? Then and now.

No more depressing thoughts for me! I've got to keep myself decent and mom happy.

That won't be easy.

Walk around NOT the park!

Michael was always there

Avoiding Michael is harder then people make it look

You're always scared that any minute BANG there in front of you.

I really missed Michaels hugs and his eyes.

"Tessa?" I heard a voice

Please be Michael

It wasn't

"Oh hey Talliya" I frowned

Talliya was an old friend who use to have the same math class as me but dropped out of school

"What are you doing here?"

It's a coffee shop in here to get coffee!

"Getting coffee" I smiled "oh sorry I'm being stupid" she laughed I only forced a smile

Back In school Talliya always got high. She didn't drink or have sex but she got highly every day like Michael does

So when I see here around I get sad

"How are things" I only shrugged "alright" she then gasped "oh shit I forgot you're dating Michael right?!!" She almost dropped her coffee ouch that really hurt.

"No just friends" not anymore thanks to myself "oh I'm sorry but rumours spread like wild fire

"That's ok" I forced a laugh "you know for someone who's alright you don't pass off as one" she raised her brown Michael used to do that!

We both sat at a table "it's nothing I'm fine" she didn't buy it "I haven't been around long enough to understand everything you do but we're friends and I know you're unhappy" I sipped my coffee

"I've just been tired" that wasn't a lie

"Oh" she huffed "how are you and Michael then" for god sakes no!

"Fine" I hid the tears "that's good" she smiled. I wanted to believe that it was