Hello Miss Lady {A Tony Perry FanFic}

Thats the spirit

*Tonys p.o.v*
Caitlin's been living with us in the rv for a few weeks now and as far as I'm aware she's settling in just fine, she's always bright and cheery and people even tell us how happy she looks and how happy we all look when she's around us. I'm still worried though, we haven't spoken about anything that's happened since she moved in and it's starting to scare me, I feel like I'm treading on thin ice and I don't know where I can and can't stand, I don't know easily it will break and I don't know how easily she'll break, I don't know if she's relapsed recently, I have and no one knows, no one knows the reasons I don't smile, no one knows why sometimes I'll 'go to bed early' when it's only 3 in the afternoon, the guilt of it all is eating away at me, I can't take it. I don't know why I did it, well I do I just don't want to think about the actual reasons, I don't want anyone else to know anymore than they have to and right now they don't have to know at all.

*Caitlins p.o.v*
Living with these 4 men has been the best thing that's ever happened to me, I don't have to talk about anything deep but I know if I wanted to they'd listen, I don't have to dress nicely and always do my make up, they're always so happy and upbeat and it makes me so happy to be able to see the people I love and care about be so happy and so content with their lives.

I don't know if they want to talk to me about my past but I know sure as hell I don't want to talk about it, I just want to bury it and never being it up, I'm so happy and I don't want to go back to that place and I'm scared even mentioning it will flip a switch and send me right back down to where I was.

I get to stand side stage for all the concerts they play and it makes me so happy to see the crowds screaming and shouting and singing like I would be if I was out there, I stand side stage singing the words along with them staring at all of their faces watching how happy they are on the stage and how relaxed they become.

*Jaimes p.o.v*
I don't think anyone else has noticed Tony's little excuses to go and hide in his bunk, he's always gone to his bunk quite early but by that I mean at about 10pm he's never gone to his bunk at 3 in the afternoon before, maybe he is just genuinely tired and I'm just being paranoid but i can't help thinking there's something deeper and darker going on, I hope he'd tell me if he needed to but maybe he doesn't feel like he can, I hope he does though. I'm just praying he hasn't relapsed I hate seeing him reach that point where he feels he has to do that, I don't understand why he feels the need to do it and it just makes me so upset seeing the person I love the most be in that much pain.
Maybe I'll confront him but I don't want him to feel uncomfortable
Maybe I just need to do it......

*authors note*
I'm so sorry it's been so long since I last updated this, I'm having a lot of problems recently and I'm all over and I really lack motivation for anything, if you guys have any ideas id be willing to try and incorporate them into the story:))