Alex’s P.O.V
“I should go. Thank you, for tonight” Hayley said before disappearing onto her bus.
“Fuck!” I yelled, kicking the rocks at the side of our bus.
“Alex? What are you doing?” Zack yelled when he came out to see what was going on. I didn’t answer him and just stormed onto the bus. He grabbed my shoulder and stopped me.
“What happened?” he asked.
“I fucked everything up! Just like I always do, I mess things up so everything goes wrong!” I yelled and sat down in my bunk and shoved my earphones in, blocking out the rest of the world. Tonight was perfect and I had found a way to mess it up. Good one Alex. Why did I have to kiss her?
“I kissed her” I said quietly to Jack who had asked what had happened.
“What? Why did you do that?”
“I don’t know, but I totally fucked things up with her Jack”
“Alex, it’ll be fine-“
“Wow Jack. Reassuring advice? That’s not like you” I joked.
“I wasn’t finished yet, now I have to start all over” I rolled my eyes and he continued on.
“Alex, it’ll be fine. Now, let’s go get drunk and find some girls who know who we are so we can get in easy!” he laughed. “Joking!” he yelled then walked into the bunk area. I laughed as well and followed him. I grabbed my guitar and started playing a song that I had written for Hayley before we broke up.
This bed’s an island made of feather down
And I’m stuck here alone
With little else but memories of you on
Memory foam
Visions of brighter love
I’d kill for one more day
To pool my thoughts and find the words to say
If these sheets were the states
And you were miles away
Id fold them end over end
To bring you closer to me
Because I don’t sleep at all
Without you pressed up against me
I settle for long distance calls
I’m lost in empty pillow talk again
This room’s become a mausoleum
Filled with relics of regret
Paying dues to every moment
Wasted on words left unsaid
Collisions of, a finer love
I’d kill for one more way
To tell you how you make me better
Every day
If these sheets were the states
And you were miles away
Id fold them end over end
To bring you closer to me
Because I don’t sleep at all
Without you pressed up against me
I settle for long distance calls
I’m lost in empty pillow talk again
